isnt it sad??christmas is over.and school's starting next week.and im dead.come visit me at my funeral.the only reason im dead because i havent finish doing my homework.im damn lazy.i only started on my maths and commonwealth essay that i have to write 1200 words.it's killing me.i dont even know what to write!.and it's not done yet. i only have a few days to do before school reopens.haiz. and next year will be a busy year. sec3.haiz. just pray that wont retain.and the competition is starting next mon.so busy man.now my brain is dead.dont feel like doing my homework.still have chinese and science and unfinished maths and english.haiz. dont want the holidays to end.
then tml there'll be a countdown at my house.so cool.we're gonna watch movie till the next morning.too bad eliz not coming.haha.anw, my father just came back from shanghai.he bought this cute small orange from shanghai.so ex and sweet.haha=)and on the first day of school i dont have to travel all the way to serangoon north.yaye.just go straight to the new school.
ohya. and the netball court is smaller. there's 2 netball court in the field. cant they just make one netball court in the actual size!haiz.
anw, there's nth for me to write.just that i've got a lot of hw to do and i dont have enough time left.

ytd was CHRISTMAS! and went out w zx gloria jiale and bella.haha.so fun. watch night at the museum.super funny lah.haha.you gotta watch it!.and bought them to a garden.haha. wasnt sure which floor it is.but now i know.haha.
then today went to my grandma house's again. cause my mum wants to play mahjiong.wah.then i was super bored.and i had to do my hw.but i did like a few questions.no mood to do.haiz.then later, my mum gonna play mahjiong again.wah.mahjiong is like her life!she cant live without it.
tml-jernan's coming my house to do some survey w my mum.haiz.then tml still need to do hw.such a boring day.now i think that life is boring.i need eliz!hahaha.

oh and i wanna say sth to the person who kept calling me w a private number and hang up when it rang just once.
STOP CALLING ME!.
if you wanna call me, please let me pick up and tell me who you are.dont call and hang up when it ring once.kays.quite irritating, you know. cause i wanna know who that person is.
i told my family about this and they said that i've got a secret admirer.today THAT person called me 3 times.i think THAT person wants to tell me sth but sth has changed THAT person's mind.haiz.
anw, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND GOODNITE PPL. SWEET DREAMS AND GOD BLESS!:)
stop calling me.

ytd went SHOPPING! again. bought a new long pants. isnt it GREAT!? wahaha:)and today i've got a new bag for christmas. i think it's nice.cause it has the word 'princess' on it. and when i carry it, ppl will know that im a princess.yaye:)so true..:)hehe:)it's from my aunt.anw, today was quite boring.AGAIN.eveyday is like so boring now. and i havent even started on my hw. OMGosh.too lazy. im a pig. hahaha:)anw,went to my grandma's house. did nth there but watch tv from 3 to 6. wow! that's long.haha. and boring. and for dinner, we ate a lot of meat. w no vege or rice.i wonder how i survive.then in my cousin's bedroom, i kept asking my sis to go home w me, since my mum is going to play mahjiong until the next morning.then my aunt was quite irritated w me,cause i kept asking and wouldnt shut up.haha.and i kept saying that i miss tigger. haha. my aunt said that im a 5 year old kid in a 15 year old body.hahaa:)
now that im home, i can sleep tight and have a goodnite rest. yeah. goodnite everyone and MERRY CHRISTMAS. enjoy ur holidays:)

i love eliz
i love jaslynn
i love weiying
i love praneetha
i love jamie
i love zhixian
i love gloria
i love chin
i love jiale
i love chong
i love bella
i love julie
i love nats
and the person i love the most is..


ME, MYSELF AND I!!<3

hehe:) MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!
enjoy your holidays!:)

i try to go on like i never knew you

i'm awake but my world is half asleep

i pray for this heart to be unbroken

but without you, all im going to be is incomplete.

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends likeSister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall,in love ,with you?

today- erm okay lah.nth much.except that we played a match w the seniors.we won!oh that's great!i think it's like the first time?hmm.i think we really improved A LOT! yeah!.
so in the morning when i woke up,it rained again.and even before training started, i vomitted again.haiz.sth's wrong w me.then we went to the hall and ran 5o ups and downs.but it's better than running 2.4km.haha=)then we did 2 sets of sprints.not as bad as last time.then after all the drills all that, we played a match w the seniors.WE WON! yeah.dont know what's the score.and the court was super wet.almost fell at the goal circle.super scary.i played GD for the first 3 quarters then 4th quarter played WD. didnt play WD for so long.i think i was abit rough, cause beiyi said that i must watch my contact.and she wasnt really happy.opps!.after the game,we stayed at the hall for like one hour.but the seniors went off.then we went to hougang mall and ate at macs and played ddr.haha.i can say im quite pro, eh?haha.so fun.then we wanted to go to dory's house but didnt.too tired.and i stink.OMGosh! then went home then bathe.haiz. now i think that today is actually quite boring.haiz.ohohoh! and did i mention that sup can read the game and intercept the ball very well. -thank me!haha.=)-

stop it!
just stop it!
stop thinking that it's your fault.
it's not your fault.
it's mine.
i didnt listen.
so stop saying it's your fault.
you say all those things are for my own good.
ya. now i know.
i regretted.
im sorry.
i dont want to hurt you.
dont want to break your heart.
so please just stop it.
it's really not your fault.
im really sorry.

Do you ever like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong,
and no one understands you.
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
and no one hears you screaming.

No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what its like to be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down,when no one's there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of being so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more,
before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside your bleeding

No you don't know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what its like to be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost,to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when your down, to feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down, when no ones there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life..

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabs you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like..

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down, when no ones there to save you
No you don't know what its like, what its like
To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down, when no ones there to save you
No you don't know what its like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life..

im very puzzled w something. if you didnt read my blog then how did you know all those things? hmm. weird isnt?
oh well. let's start w ytd. so fun. haha. only after training. DUH! haha.then ytd during training, we had a match w dont know what school.and we won. didnt expected that. cause we werent leading in the first quarter. the best quarter was the 3rd. intercepted a lot of balls. that's great!. yeah!. so in the end we won lah. 21 to 30 i think. hmm. dont know lah. haha.then after training we went to eat lunch. then i went hm to make then nuggets.haha. i was suppose to make it, in the end my mum made it.haha. she was quite angry.haha.then went to heartland to buy chirstmas presents.haha.bought candies for you guys!=)but.. it's still w me.haha.
then when i reach charmaine's house, i went to the bbq pit. kept calling weiying and jas but i guess they didnt hear. or maybe my voice is too soft?ohya. then me gloria and weiying went to walk around the swimming pool and guess what?. gloria pushed me in. wahliao.but gloria was pushed in by weiying. haha. thanks weiying!. a lot of ppl was pushed in.haha.
then it also kept raining. so irritating lah.but we dont care. kept swimming until the sercurity guard ask us to get out of the pool.
then at night, my batch kept dancing to funny songs.haha so fun. love you guys!.entertained a lot of ppl. oh and did i mentioned that the bbq pit area was like flooded. YUCK! so disgusting lah. then we also threw grapes in the air and tried to catch it w our mouth. e liz could do it the best. not bad eh?.
then it kept raining.SUPER cold. i was freezing lah. and i was wet too.lucky got zx to fetch me home. yaye!. thanks zx!. oh and before went home, carin gave me chocolate. said that it was my farewell present. i didnt expected that she wont____. she also said that i couldnt see her anymore. sad leh. ='( i didnt know what to say to her. haiz.
then today. RAINING again. sian arh. was hoping that we wont have training. super cold. and carin came. hmm. haiz. in the end we still train. in the hall. but we started training late. then we learnt so many things. those who didnt come, lose out a lot.then after training, i went home.when i was about to reach home, i saw my father's car driving out of the house. lucky i left school early or else i would have missed them and i wont have lunch AGAIN.then my family went to heartland and ate pizza.then went cold storage then went home.then i went to bathe then to bed. super tired man.
tml morning, my father's going to shanghai for work. only can see him twice a year. haiz and now have to go school myself.have to wake up early now.
sometimes the mgses you send to me are hurtful.sometimes i cant take it, i just cried. stop hurting me please.but sometimes you treat me so nice and say nice things. and sometimes you keep saying that you owe me.but you dont have to. cause it's not necessary. just wanna say thanks for all you have done=)

That's what I go to school for
Even though it is a real bore
You can call me crazy,
I know that she craves me
That's what I go to school for
Even though it is a real bore
friends I've had plenty,
None like you
That's what I go to school for
That's what I go to school for

*changed some words.

8:45 PM

lets start on thursday.we had a match w coral sec AND WE TRASHED THEM! yeah!oh and before the match,we ran up and down 6times. then we did sprints then team ball work.then when we were doing one of the drills, zx and jiale said that we must run 2.4km. WHAT! THATS CRAZY MAN!wahliao. then we run lo. so angry lah. (not w you jiale or zx)then later we did almost everything again. wahliao.then we start the match. i played GD for all four quarters.can die lah.didnt play GD for so long then suddenly ask me to play.im not very sure where to run lah.then after the match,coach sadiah said that we play well. then she asked us if we are ready for the tournament.no one answeres then she walked away. wahliao. then she went to talk to mrs tng and ms chew.then mrstng and mschew said that sth sth sth.. er. dont know lah. just that she become fierce because she said that we crossed the line. okay lah be fierce lo. i dont mind. but can be in friendly terms w us when we are off court mah.so what leh.
okay then ytd..was friday.went to vivo city in the afternoon. WAH! DAMN BIG! i can get lost.haha.=)my famiy were suppose to go shopping . but it seems that my oldest sis is shopping and we are just following her. wahliao. but she didnt buy anything. we bought sth for my cousin.A TEDDY BEAR!.it's so cute.ahhh!!.cost $28. i also want, but i've already got my christmas present. haiz. it's the handphone. but i want somemore. i want the bear. it's so cute. someone buy it for me!. haha=)then went hm. super tired. but i still have piano lesson. 1 hour of theory. can die lah. my brain almost DIED!. then went out to eat dinner then came back. haiz. such a tiring day.
then today. went to watch the magic of love. actully i didnt want to watch it when my peer seniors asked if i wanted to watch. but in the end i still watched it. super nice and COLD haha. i enjoyed it so much. those who missed it, go and watch it tml. dont know what time at expo, kays?haha.=)then went to suntec city and got lost there. it's so big of course i'll get lost lah.then i reached home before 10pm. lucky!. or else my mum have a lot of things to say to me again. dont wanna hear it.haha.then tml at my sis church have some talent time thingy. my sis performing.yeah! going to support!. yeah!
please stop hurting me.i just cant take it no more.

Can't explain it
How you swept me off my feet
Unexpectedly
In slow motion
My imagination's runnin’ tryin’ to keep my body still
Oh, I can hardly stand the thrill

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day


haiz.coach sadiah was moody again.vending her anger on us by making us train so damn hard.haiz.i cant take it anymore.im dying.and i have no mood for training anymore.i need a break.then today,before i even train,i volmitted again.ytd volmitted,today also volmitted.whats wrong w me?maybe cause im sick of running 2.4km.haha.can die lah. cant we just stop running 2.4km.haiz
then after training,we went to eat lunch w ms chua.haiz.need to spent money again.then i'll have no money.IM BROKE! IM ALWAYS AM!haiz.then we played basketball.OMG! DAMN FUN LAH!haha. they keep pushing me off the court when i had the ball. CHEATER!haha.i also kept saying rebound but i was too lazy to get it.haha.DAMN FUN!OMG! we should play basketball more often.haha.can release stress.haha.then later,we talk about a lot of things and complain what we want to complain.haha.talk for like damn long lah. until like 5 plus. i think.then go home very late.lucky got zx's father to fetch me home.YAYE!haha.now im damn tired.haiz. tml still need to study.see im so hard working.haha.then on friday got friendly w dont know what school.haha.dont feel like playing.anw,we dont have enough players.

another day gone. and it's such a boring and tiring day. haiz. and i volmitted today during training. i felt damn sick lah. felt like puking in the morning when i woke up,but couldnt cause my stomach was empty.yuck! i hate the feeling of volmitting. it's like im trying to volmit me heart out. yuck!anw, today's training was like.er.okay lah just that coach sadiah was damn moody. and eliz didnt come for training today cause of her camp. i miss her crap-ness.hahaha.dont tell her. or else she'll get too excited.haha.then we're gonna have friendly w dont know what school on fri.haiz. dont feel like having friendly. and no mood to tain tml.haiz. must wear THAT heavy shoe. i felt like dying today when i ran 2.4km. it's a nightmare. i deprove by one mintue. THAT'S A LOT!. AHH!.haiz. anw, gonna sleep soon, so that i wont be tired tml. i know it's damn early but im damn, super tired. haiz.what a boring and tiring day for me.but at least there was someone to accompany me today. oh and we're going to have lunc w ms chua tml.haiz. i've got no money. how am i gonna eat?? hope that they wont eat at somewhere ex.DAMN! and i still owe gloria 11 bucks!. haiz.. im damn, super broke. someone treat me tml??

so much work to do
so many things to be done
so confuse
im so confused
how i wish someone will save me.

today my family went.. somewhere i forgot the place.haha.then i bought two ankle guards and a sports bra.haha.then we went to the cold storage to buy FOOD!food glorious food!haha.
then after that, went to visit my aunt in kk hospital. cant be discharged until she can stand up.haiz.we talked about my cousin. she's only 12 years old.and she an orphan.sad.anw, her first choice was st. marg. omg!i cant believe it lah. the school uniform is damn ugly lah. yuck!. cant believe it.
then when we left, my mum said that she's meeting her friends at raffles hotel. i didnt know that raffles hotel existed and it's like dmn BIG lah!.omg!haha.
anw, when we reached home, my sis and i just started eating the snacks that we bought.and we watch hercules.i couldnt really understand what they are saying.and it's so different from the cartoon version.haha.
haiz.tml still got training.and i have to wear THAT shoe. omg! i think im gonna die tml. someone save me!

today we training for 5HOURS! can you believe that. and some ppl wore the new addidas shoes, said that it's heavy.heavier than the asics. omg! i feel that the asics shoe is quite heavy lah.. i think i've wasted my money buying the addidas shoe.haiz.and the more i look at it,the more it looks uglier to me.haha.then after training, we went to eat then visit ZHIXIAN!.haha.she was sleeping.haha.her hair was damn messy and her feet smells.haha.of medication oil of course.haha.then we went home.but i have to meet JINHWEE!only waste my time and energy lah.went home and out AGAIN just to meet her.haiz.then after that, i went home to relax,but my mum said that i needed to do the laundry.DAMN! im super tired and i still have to do the laundry?!WTH!cant she ask other ppl. not as if im the only child lah.and before i went out AGAIN, she said that praneetha was my girlfriend.WTF!?just because i sit beside her doesnt mean that she's my girlfriend!cant you just stop saying that i've got a girlfriend!.it's not funny and damn irritating lah.wahliao.if you really want me to have girlfriend then say lah!.if not,just stop all these bullshit.DAMN!.sorry. i really feel that i have to write these so i can release my anger.
anw,im gonna relax and NO ONE can stop me from doing that.

i've bought my new HANDPHONE!. isnt that great?.haha=)-i'll show it to you tml- i think my handphone is damn cool lah. haha. it's bella's handphone but it's black in colour.and i've also bought my books. super heavy lah. lucky my father was there. haha.oh and my mum got 3 free umbrella for spending dont know how much money.haha.and the umbrella is damn ugly lah.haha. and we went to cold storage. yaye!. it's time to buy FOOD!my home dont have food lah. all my fridge has is like water, butter, fruits... and sometimes i have to skip my breakfast cause there's no food!. but lucky tml i'll have FOOD!. YAYE!haha.haiz. and i just reminded myself that there's training tml. not really looking foward towards training but to buy shoes after training. YES!i'll have my new shoes tml. haha. cant wait!.anw, gotta sleep early and recharge my enegry for tml.haiz...

And you look at her and she looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
but she don't know how I feel
And she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out that I'm crazy for this girl
Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
Right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with you

ytd celebrated alyn's birthday. we watch movie until about 4 am. then we woke up at about 10 plus?.-jiale! why didnt you come? it was so fun.-hmm.now im damn tired. oh and i dreamt that i forgot to bring my father's dvd back home. it was a nightmare! thank God it's just a dream.anw, when i reached home, i continued watching dvds w sijia. haha. thank God she was w me or i'll be HOME ALONE. my family went malaysia without me. saddening isit?.haha. then when they came back, they bought so many stuff. hmph! went shopping without me! but at least they bought something for me. yaye!=) they bought a new wallet for me.. but a bit too small. well, at least its new!and i've also got a pen! that has light.. ohya, my sis said that she bought me high heel shoes. I WAS SHOCKED!. but it was just a joke. anw, the high heel shoes is so damn ugly.haha. then in the evening, we went to my grandma house. i just love talking to my aunite. haha. we talked abt NETBALL!!! she was a netballer in her younger days. said that at her time, netball was damn rough. they would just push ppl. and when my auntie talked about her team, she said that as if her team was one of the best in Singapore. well, i dont know. haha. anw, after that, we went to eat. dont feel hungry at all. maybe i was too tired. need some sleep. but still, i ate. dont want to worry someone. -see! i didnt skip my meals. arent you proud of me?- haha. anw, time for me to zzz...=)

eight years later time goes by fast
got my memories and they will last
i try to keep it simple 'cos i hate goodbyes
i try to keep it simple by telling myself, that..

i will remember you
and all of the things that we've gone through
there is so much i can say
but words get in the way, so..
i will remember you
and all of the things that we've gone through
there is so much i can say
but words get in the way, so
when we're not together
i will remember you

i will remember...you

we're in a picture in my mind
when i wanna find you, i just close my eyes
you'll never be that far from meso dont say goodbye 'coz
you'll never be that far from me by telling myself, that...

i will remember you
and all of the things that we've gone through
there is so much i can say
but words get in the way, so ..
i will remember you
and all of the things that we've gone through
there is so much i can say
but words get in the way, so
when we're not together
i will remember you

you were there when i needed help
thank you, thank you
i never told you how much that mattered
thank you, thank you

i will remember you
and all tof the things that we've gone through
there is so much i can say
but words get in the way, so..
i will remember you
and all of the things that we've gone through
there is so much i can say
but words get in the way, so
when we're not together
i will remember..
when we're not together
i will remember you

i will remember you