dec is coming soon. im so not excited for the first time. because next year is really going to be really tough. and i dont know if i can take the stress next year. and i really wonder how the jc2s made it. and im still deciding if i want to retain or not. ughh~ i hate making this kind of decision. and one thing for sure is that im missing giraffe.. so badly. ): i hate it.
anw, this year has passed really fast. it feels as if it was only yesterday that i've received my o levels results. maybe it's because i want to start all over again. to do jc1 again without any regrets. but then again, if i did it another way, i might not have met giraffe. and i might not have done a lot of crazy stuff. but yet again, i might have succeed in so many other ways. but i'll never know. guess i'll just have to live where i am now. and not think about what i could have done. instead i should be working hard now and get ready for next year. im just so worried. and i really wonder the jc2s done it. it just seem so hard.
and one more thing. my laptop was spoilt. though it's repaired, all my data's gone. somehow, it seems like something's telling me that i have to leave certain things. and it's like a new beginning. yeah. it's tough but i will be strong.
oh yes. i have to train really hard if i wanna reach my goal of 9mins plusplusplus. plus i have to study really hard. and im so determined to achieve top for math! woo!
"So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea Watch it away as you cry Now a year has passed The seasons go
Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed This wait for destiny won't do Be with me, please, I beseech you Simple things, that make you run away Catch you if I can"
