tell me how?.

i kinda hate my laptop. firstly, it's heavy, so i dread bring it to school. secondly, i waste lots of time on my com. doing what? i have no freakin idea. and everytime i need to do sth, i tend to drift off to doing other things like now. okay. i shall just face paper and black ink for the moment.

anw, i need to rant about a lot of things. but i just cant seem to tell you. ):

back to homework and study.

10:11 PM

current situation

do you feel tired? yes, i do feel tired mentally and physically. but not giving up right here, right not. no, it's just the beginning. right now, my lists is full. i've wasted far too much time. now, i should not think that im studying as hard as others, cause inside, i know im not. and wasting my time thnking that life's unfair? why not just studying?. life is unfair, we all know that. then why complain? nothing's gonna change afterall. i've been the pushee, now i guess you're right. i have to be the pusher if i want them to change their attitude, their mindset. but it gets tiring after some time. please know it yourself. everytime we wanna get sth done, it nv gets done fully. why? i should just focus on my goal. but i wanna help you too. please help me to help you. it's very tiring. i just dont understand why. if you dont understand, just know that im talking to my brain.

current affairs

odac's ubin cycling keeps postponing. no odac training. i feel fat. yet, im losing weight cause im sick. but now, at least i can eat. and i will feel like vomitting again. and i have to do my gp hw. cause i dont wanna leave it to the last min again. and worry like shit and sleeping late cause i have to finish it or else im dead. okay.. other homework are waiting in line. i will finish them. then moving on to the next column, studying. i need it.

right now, i feel my life is so dull and so i need dull songs. but i seem to like it. (x

1:19 PM