what can a smile do?

hello ms pea. i miss you so dearly. hopefully you'll see this post soon. anw, guess what? my common test is next week. /: i feel that im not prepared for it. im so tired.. mentally tired. and you know what? i regret many things in life. thinking back that i should have done this and that. i need to talk to you.. but then i realise that whenever i meet up with you, i tend not to talk about the things that i want to say. cause i feel that there's no point. what's the point of complaining right? people will get sick of it if i go on and on and on.. so actually, whatever i tell you is only the surface or maybe something that i really need to say out. anw, i'd rather share my joy with you. (x
anw, i still want to thank you for the valentine's present. it's really a pleasant surprise. cause i found it in my fridge. haha.. i know you didnt put it there, my mum did. hahaha. anw, tml will be my first time playing for church service. just had band practice. and im feeling rather scared now cause i freak at crowds. but i hope that this will help my train to face my fears of large crowds. (x

anw, friday was the release of a levels results and srjc had improved. (x i really admire those people who have seriously great time management. cause they still manage to find joy in the midst of all stress. they juggle their time so well with studies and play. and what's more is that they are leaders of the school. and they have a lot of commitment. that's what makes them admirable.
but one thing i feel that is that im not given a chance to lead. just because im not very open and not enthu. /: well, whatever life throws at me, i'll take it. like right now, life is throwing me with teachers who gives me a lot of homework. and common test is just next week. im willing to accept it.. without complains.. but it's human nature that we cant handle a lot of things. people do get stressed. people do cry. if you tell me not to cry, i'll tell you to shut up. cause crying does actually makes me feel better. and it's usually the strong that dares to cry infront of the many. the strong dares to show their weakness. and weak hides it all and comment on people to make them feel bad about themselves.

on a note, you are one awesome guy. thank you for all. though you've done nothing much. (x

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