jocleen- okay. nvm. i dont get it. heh!(:

pea- shut up lah. moron! bleah.

zeNA- haha. purposely type like that. who wants to add a warrior. im afraid that she'll kill me.

shoanna- welcome.

gloria- wo ye ai ni!. muacks!.

ytd- i became G's bf. haha. [.. dont take it for real hor!!] haha. anw, morning training was great. played games instead of actual training. yeah. anw, now.. time to study chinese. byebye!.(:

Labels: you you you

im gonna be here for you baby
i'll be a man of my word
speak the languange in a voice that you have never heard
i wanna sleep with you forever
and i wanna die in your arms
in a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swram

and im gonna love you like nobody loves you
and i'll earn your trust making memories of us

i wanna honor your mother
i wanna learn from you pa
i wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw
i wanna stand out in a crowd for you
a man among men
i wanna make your world better than it's ever been

and im gonna love you like nobody loves you
and i'll earn your trust making memories of us

we'll follow the rainbow
where the four winds blow
and there'll be a new day
comin' your way

im gonna be here for you from now on
this you know somehow
you've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now
and im gonna make you a promise
if there's life after this
im gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss

and im gonna love you like nobody loves you
and i'll earn you trust making memories of us
im gonna love you like nobody loves you
and i'll win your trust making memories of us

we have some questions but we never really find out why.

Labels: making memories of us

jocleen- yeah. of course. i dont know why, but i dont really feel the pain when i hit the ball. maybe i got used to it? (: and i finally know how to serve the ball. wahaha.(:

G- yeah. i fine now! love ya many!(:

jas- haha. they looked like water droplets. haha. hello. and stop calling yourself moron! haiz..

jiale- yeah. i beileve i can!. thanks, yo!(: love.

i should never crossed that line.

school.. hmm. the usual. i was having moodswings during the weekday. yeah. but i feel so much better now. yeah. and training on thursday- was great other than not being able to breathe properly. stupid throat infection. yeah. than nothing much about school lah. everyweek is the same thing except the 'chers' teaches different things. haha(: yeah. anw, just came back from jamie chan's house. yeah. and her dog is damn cute but naughty. haha. i think her dog's in love with me. keep coming near me. and when i wanted to go home already, the dog doesnt want to go back into the house. keep staring at me. haha. then dog also know how to act cute. haha. ohohoh and the dog hi-5-ed me. yaye!. so cute!. haha(:

yeah. anw, not much time left. eoy are coming soon. but somehow i just dont wanna study. haiz. someone do sth.. and im just glad that i pass my geog ct. omg! the first time in this year lah. wah. geog is damn difficult to score lah. and jasmine is like a walking geog textbook. wth? yeah. and my science results are bad. at least a math was alright(: and im damn angry with my e math results. why didnt i read the stupid instructions? all of the s.f cost me at least 4 marks!. wth? yeah.

anw, today had the pupil profiling. wah damn boring lah. but the part i love the most is when the person said that we wont fail nor pass. haha. (: okay that's stupid. haha.

yeah. and my mum changed the arrangement in my room. so one part of my room is kinda squeezy and the other side has lots of space. wahliao. not used to the new rearrangement. ): yeah and the hole in my house has been covered. hopefully another part of the celling wont collaspe(:

yeah. i tried and i failed. what did i do wrong? how many times must i try then i wont fail? i keep making the same mistakes. and i think i've taken the wrong steps in the first place. well life's like that. so what do you expect me to do? i dont wanna have atdwy. but how i can do that? isnt that bcty? yeah. so it's unfair. i shall be tolerant. (:

when hatred and love collide.

Labels: makes who i've been., who i am

far longer than forever.

if i could break the spell, i would run to him today.
but somehow i know he's on his way to me.

hah! back from studying. yeah. think im gonna fail prac. i dont know what the hell im doing lah. ): yeah. anw, just wanna add something that happened today. haha!!. after school, had peerlite meeting. then when ms kok was talking, i saw '3 water droplets' coming out of her mouth. and they were aiming for me. i tried to avoid it by turning my head away, but it was too late... 1 of the 'water droplets' hit my face. haha. someone, i think it's jas, said that when i turn my head, it looked as if someone slapped me. haha. imagine her 'water droplets' slapping me? haha.

okay jokes over. haha. i feel so gross. haha. yeah. had morning training today. it went well. i was perspiring so much. and volleyball's fun now. cause maybe i got used getting hit by the ball? heh(: yeah. went to the doctor by myself. so boring lah. yeah. and tml have morning training again. damn. i almost forgotton about it. and im damn sad that im not going for obs. it's once in a life time, yo. haiz. sad. aiights.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Labels: may your will be done

yeah,yeah, yeah.
haha. anw, tml have practical. great.. yeah. anw, heard this song from maureen's blog.

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.
its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the grown?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

nice right?? haha. anw, shall. continue later. study first!(:

Labels: do you feel like a man when you push her around?

jocleen- im trying toooooooo.........

i dont if it's worth me losing sleep over this

yeah. firstly wanna say sorry to lots of people. just very pissed today. like how you say.. moodswing?. haiz. these few days im quite pissed. so please, please, please, please, please, please dont do anything that would make me even more pissed. you're also doing yourself a favour. alrights. and im pissed over something that has been for super long already.. it's just piling up even higher? and i hate SE. the most stupidest word. and im sensitive to certain things, aiights. so please MIND YOUR WORDS!. and please dont go over that line. or else you'll see the worse of me. there's a limit to it. so you dont have to keep rubbing it in. yeah.. maybe im too stressed? alrights. i just needa go run or something to relief stress. who wanna join me? dont worry.. i wont bite. (:

yeah. today wasnt great. like i said.. i was pissed. alrights. i gotta chill, yo. didnt have the mood to say 'hi' to anyone. dont really even bother to talk or listen to all the craps my clique has to say. i just kept quiet and stare at other things. though i did listen to certain things.
okay. at least my whole day wasnt like that. thanks to some people and those bunch of fun-loving people. thanks to them, i got to laugh, though i didnt contrubute much. hah!. yeah. love you guys. you always made my day. (:

yeah. and actually suppose to go kan yi shen. then didnt cause waited for zx and jas. so it was 3.30pm when we were about to leave and the clinic closes at 4pm.. so what's the point, yeah? just hope that i will recover soon and fast. and who wanna go kan yi shen with me?? i dont wanna go alone..):

yeah. even though all the cts for the lower sec are over, it isnt over for us. argh. still have that oey. and still going on with the stress. i wanna go church!. i need to pray to God!. yeah. well. next week gonna start again. haiz. oh.. i hate oey so much. timings are wrong. ):

tml have morning training. perfect!. a great time to relief stress!. well, looking forward to it!.

oh yeah yeah yeah.. jas has eliz 'wake up' call. it's original!. haha. eliz made it herself with her own voice. haha. and her sister's also damn funny. haha. now whenever i need eliz laughter, i can just play her 'wake up' call haha.

though i say yes most of the time, doesnt mean i will say yes for everything.- get that in your head!.

so take, take everything and leave me scrambling.
reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place.

Labels: my eyes burns from these tears.

just look over your shoulder
and i'll be there always.

WOOHOO!!.
cts are over now, eh. im just so glad. now all we have left are eoy. argh. i think it's stupid lah. after cts then have eoy right after that. no break!. but im just gonna break for today and tml. cause training killer me today. i feel so damn tired lah. aches here and there. and i keep contacting people. argh. what's wrong? haiz. anw, before training started, i vomitted. then i dont know why, i just wanted to cry.. again. so irritating. yeah. and kinda pissed off again. stupid people with their stupid words and reasons. alrights. let's chill first.

oh and i found the 'you'll be in my heart' chords. yaye!. and i can play already!. (: double yaye!

alrights. i just needa cool off right now. and just relax.
bye!

dont listen to them, cause what do they know.

Labels: kiss my pain away..

for the sake of vivien hooooooo!!!!. i shall do this. kinda stupid. haha.

try not to peep at the question before writing the name(:
1. gloria
2.pea
3.weikee
4.zx
5.sup(heh!)
6.kit ru
7. bella
8.jiale
9.jocleen
10. julia

(who is no.6 having relationship with?)
kitty? no one?
(Is no.9 a male or female?)
female
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)
they are both straight. (:
(How about no.8 and 5?)
OMG! NO!
(What is no.2 studying about?)
all kinds of math
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)
today
(What kind of music band does no.8 like?)
i have no idea(:
(Does no.1 has any siblings?)
yeah
(Will you woo no.3?)
i'd rather die
(How about no.7?)
i'd kill myself a million times.
(Is no.4 single?)
yeah
(What's the surname of no.5?)
mathiprechakul.. (i think)(:
(What's the name of no.10?)
hmm..julia sth. haha
(What's the hobby of no.4?)
netball??
(Does no.5 and 9 get along well?)
they dont know each other.
(Where is no.2 studying at?)
pl
(Say something casual about no.1)
she's my best friend! love her(:
(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?)
oh.. no!
(Where does no.9 live?)
somewhere in s'pore,
(What color does no.4 like?)
blue??
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)
NO!
(Does no.7 likes no.2?)
no. anw it'll be weird.haha
(How did you get to know no.2?)
sec1, 2,3 classmate!(:
(Does no.1 have any pets?)
had..
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)
har.. okay lah. haha(: i think no. 5 is the sexiest.(:

haha. okay kinda lame. but for the sake of vivien, i did it!. yeah. anw, didnt study today at all. okay im so dead. really dont feel like studying lah. so sian. but still have to lah. studying later.. hopefully(: smiles.

Labels: 090806

netballers- please be reminded there will training on monday. ALL are to come. including the non school team players.(: training will start at 3pm. dont be late!(:

pea- omg! am i suppose to be scared??
jocleen- okay lah. typo error lah. haha(: yeah. all the best for ya paper!(:

Oh, the power to be strong
And the wisdom to be wise
All these things will
come to you in time
On this journey that you're making
There'll be answers that you'll seek
And it's you who'll climb the mountain
It's you who'll reach the peak

yeah.math paper. WOOHOO!!!. both the a and e paper was great! especially when i can prove the thing. haha(: anw, monday- science. pretty scared. i haven even started studying yet. and worse.. i dont know what to study. ): alrights. then ytd. taught ajw. and shoanna.. i could have died teaching shoanna math. phew!. lucky i didnt (: heh!. yeah. after that. went to join jocleen, qy and LH for a while and julia was there too!. omg! i think she's damn funny can!. haha. then i felt that i was being stalked again.. so i quickly went home. haha.

yeah. anw, wanted to go home and study.. end up watching tv. i couldnt take it anymore lah. especially the time when i was studying ss and geog. alrights. then ytd disney channel showed tarzan!. one of my fav show. haha. i love the songs in that show. yeah. and. i cooked dinner. i cooked sausage marcoroni (spell?) with cambell soup!. those of you who wanna try my specialty, please dont hestitate to come to my house. heh!(: provided that i have the ingredients. haha(: and it's seriously damn nice. hmm. maybe i'll be a chief in the future? haha.

In learning you will teach
And in teaching you will learn
You'll find your place beside the
ones you love
Oh, and all the things you dreamed of
The visions that you saw
Well, the time is drawing near now
It's yours to claim it all

Labels: lift your spirits, set it free.

but for now, i will go and i wont say nothing.

WOOHOO!
just damn happy that geog and ss is over. and tml's math. so that wouldnt really be a big problem, though i needa practice more. 'practice makes perfect.' then there will be a line..' but no one's perfect, so why practice..' hah! (: yeah. anw, kinda angry.. cause i learn so much for geog and only 1 question come out, wth!?. tell me!. who wouldnt be angry. haha. and.. ss was kinda last min studying.(: anw, after that, ate w G. and she tuitored rachel tan and jessica. and i found out sth disgusting. shall not elaborate.(: then went home studied maths like hell shit. yeah. and later studying again. im quite confident for tml's paper!(: heh!.

and im falling in love with this song again(:

This is the song that reminds me of my trucker hat
That I used to wear not to block out the sun
With a john deere logo and a stain on the back
From where you laid me out flat one look
I was done

And all these things mean nothing to me
When Im with you Ive got everything
I could want and I could need
Even God he would agree
You and I were meant to be
Its easy to see

Ill never go out of style on you
And nothing really feels the way you do
Nothing in the world could ever make me look as good
When you fit me like you do

This is the verse about the Parachute pants
That I learned to break dance in and thought I was good
So much for believing the fat guy doesnt win
get the girl in the end I never thought that I could

And all these things mean nothing to me
When Im with you Ive got everything
I could want and I could need
Even God he would agree
You and I were meant to be
Its easy to see

Ill never go out of style on you
And nothing really feels the way you do
Nothing in the world could ever make me look as good
When you fit me like you do

Im not the perfect guy
a little slow but Ive
Got perfect timing with you
Take a look around
Outside the in crowd
There aint nothing we cant do

ill never go out of style on you
nothing really feels the way you do
nothing in this world could ever make me look this good
when you fit me like you do

yeah. and i've finally learnt how to play this song. but apparently, i lost this song and other songs from bowling for soup, because my com crashed one fine day. wth? so whoever have this song, pppllleeeaaassseee send to me? then i'll love you many many! (:

anw, all the best for tml's paper!. pray that God will give you wisdom(: and rest well tonight(:smiles.(:

Labels: when hatred and love collide.

jocleen: my gosh! you dont know how to spell your name too!. haha. yeah. you too. all the best for your cts(:

LH: okay. here's something you can do to keep you 'not bored'. you can study for the cts!(: haha. then after that, you can play all you want.(:

paddy: haha. alrights. see ya.

pea: omg!. you're too stressed!. chill man!. go exercise or something. go reflief your stress!. i wont talk to you until you're not stressed!. haha. anw, i cant wait for that day. haha. can see them being so happy when they win a game.. just like that person today. haha. so cute. haha. anw, im still young, yo. i'll join them when im old enough. but of course you'll join them first, since you're the oldest among our clique. haha. so i'll see ya there.. in how many years time??

i conclude that pea is too stressed and will always be!. yay!(:

school's kinda weak. days are kinda slow. my gosh. anw, today after school, had cell and i led. omg! it's been a long since i was this scared. haha. anw, i think it went well. thank God. (: and zx said it was fun. but apparently, she didnt learn anything. haiz. alrights. anw, my brain was filled with so many sinx, cosx, tanx... wahliao. i was killing myself. thank God it's over.. for now. after dinner gonna continue. kill me math.. just kill me.

what the hell is wrong with you?

Labels: i almost had you.

stop, turn, take a look around.

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...

i love this song!. i think this song is very nice and encouraging. haha. dont know why, but i just suddenly started singing this song. haha(: smiles everyone. hope that you like this song as much as i do!(:

anw, ran today with jas.. and she's running tml.. again. haha. kinda nice talking to her while running. really made time past damn fast. alrights. anw, before that.. 'studied' w kitty, G, bella ans chong. haha. had great laughs today. (: love them. heh(: i shall enjoy studying!(:

Labels: so now we'll break tradition.

firstly, wanna sorry to someone. thought that anonymous was you but it wasnt. so.. sorry. (:

but i guess the joke was on me.

anw, day's kinda slack. woke up 12!. ate lunch and breakfast together. yeah. studied for a while. went out. came home. studied again. okay my day's kinda short. haha. anw, for those of you who remember that my celling fell due to the pipe that leak. im really scared to go to my sister's room now. just afraid that something will come out from there. haha. watched too many ghost shows. but of course, there's no such thing as ghost. (: but still scared lah.haha.

anw, im not ready to take my cts. i can just die for geog lah. dont know what toh's talking about. and she said that i made so much noise. wahliao. haha. anw, ms ting gone. i just realised that. yeah. but we still have ms ng. yaye. omg. G's so jealous. haha.okayokay. anw, gonna run tml. with jas. i think jas is crazy. she asked G to run with her on tue, then she ask me to run with her tml. erm okay. haha. anw, it's time to lose some pounds. okay. make that a lot. haha. (:

girl, im losing my mind.

Labels: i've made a mistake.

okay you win.
i fear you.

Labels: im sorry.

well if you wanna get free.
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart
for the sake of your heart and all
you should own your name
and stand up tall and get real
and see the beauty in ugly.


I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now Im missing you and Im wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now Im all alone


Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around its a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know its a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I dont know what else I can do
Dont tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
Ill wait for you


Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just cant do it baby


What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just aint like that
Why cant you look at me?
Youre still in love with me
Dont leave me crying

Baby why cant we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But youre telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I dont know what else I can do
Dont tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
Ill wait for you


So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know its a lie what youre keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If its the last thing I do


Baby I will wait for you
Cause I dont know what else I can do
Dont tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life


Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do


Ill wait for you
Ill be waiting...

anw, just went to my sister's church for some event. the skit is funny. so fake. haha. duh!.and i finally have some idea what to say for cell. yeah. im leading cell next week. my gosh. and im scared. hopefully everything will go smoothly. and i've made plans after cts and eoy. haha. and hopefully our stamina wont drop after ct and eoy.(: .

yeah. anw, have been thinking a lot. i hate it. i need someone right now. ):

there are some days dark and bitter
seems we havent got a prayer
but a prayer for something better
is the one thing we all share

Labels: music and lyrics

the one that i missed. but somehow i no longer feel how i feel for you.

it's been exactly one year. still remember this day. alrights. but this time, i really went to watch fireworks. though it's damn freaking short and i went home early for the one of the few times and the fireworks are damn small, it's worth it. and the scenery is so beautiful. night time is the best. it's not so hot. and when you stand somewhere high, you can see the city lights. though it's small, it's still beautiful. and you can also feel the wind blowing across your face. feels like you're in dreamland.haha. alrights.

and this day made me remember of a lot of things. a lot of things that happened last year. i remember YOU making my day when im down.. YOU'RE always there for me. but most of the time im never there for YOU. although SHE'S the one i think about, YOU'RE the one i feel most comfortable to talk to. i dont know. maybe im just regretting.. again. alrights. this is stupid. maybe i said those things to YOU because i was feeling kinda stressed? or maybe annoyed by YOU. i dont know. i was just angry. maybe i just needed some break from YOUR msges. now.. i feel that i can handle my feelings better?. alrights. maybe im just talking crap. but i really miss YOU. alrights. and i shall take the first step. tgyb

i just hope that all the hatred in YOU will be forgiven. it's not good to be angry all the time. it only hurts YOUR health. seriously. alrights. just wanna say im sorry. i've been a jerk.

forgive and forget.

Labels: shouldnt have let YOU go.

jocleen: okay. shall not mention about her.

anonymous: alrights then. im sorry. btw, you shouldnt say that jocleen is a bitch. if it's because of what she has done to you, then talk to her about it. if she hasnt done anything to you, you shouldnt be saying that. no one deserves to be a bitch. and why dont you put your name? maybe you're 'shy' or too ashamed to use it? it shows a lot of your level of maturity. or maybe you dont have at all. so i encourage you to please handle such things in a more professional way in the future. so talk to her and make things right. it's better to make friends than to make enemies.

maureen: alrights. dont bother about it anymore. it's her choice to say what she wanna say. but of course, it's better if she doesnt say nasty things.(:

G- i miss you too!

jocleen- welcome!(:

all it needs is time.

alrights. training ytd. dont know what happen to me. im felt so energetic. and i feel that i can sprint faster now. maybe it's because of my physio. the doctor did a great job!. alrights. ytd was kinda fun. 'celebrated' ms ting's farewell. sounds kinda wrong, as if we're happy to have her gone. hah! but no lah.haha. alrights. enjoyed my lessons ytd. i think my english letter writing is good. hopefully i can get higher than usual.heh!(: alrights. and during chem, i wasnt really paying attention. talking to jeya. thank God she knows what to say when mrs chew caught us not paying attention. oh and G was dancing when we were having our training, as in she danced for the pri school kids to see lah so that they can learn.(: great dancing G!

oh and on monday some stupid person stole my shoe lace. wth? so i went to school with extra super long shoe lace. thank God not many people looks down on the floor as they walk. haha. and guess who that thief was.. it's my sister!. my gosh!. i feel that she doesnt have a brain lah. it's obvious that i need shoe lace to go to school and i only have one shoe. wahliao. and her reason for taking the shoe lace was that she needed it for her dance. wth? i hope that she's reading this. thanks to her. [and i bet she'll be laughing when she reads this ]

and today.. celebrated national day. alrights. it's the shortest celebration parade i had in my pl years. hah!. thank God or else im gonna suffer from the hot sun!. hah!.anw, the celebration wasnt really that good, a part from the marching of the uniform groups, the band, the dance performance and pris throwing that stick thingy. haha.

and i dont understand you people. it's either you guys dont know how to read or you think that it's a fake. i clearly put on my nick that whoever wants a sunflower, come look for me. terms and condition apply. [which is: i only have one flower and i only can give to one person. first come first serve basis.] and when i came to school with a sunflower, all of you want it. [especially that WY!. that moron punched me so hard just because she wants a sunflower. ] haiya. you people. too bad.. i've given it to someone already. next time. try reading my nick!. alrights.(: haha.

anw, tml is national day. yaye!. but have to study again. cts are coming real soon. and im just gonna die of stress!. seriously. i get angry easily, irritated easily. sometimes i cry for no apparent reason. okay. hope that it wont get any worse. haha. im just looking forward to the holidays!(: but first thing first. study.. then play!(: hopefully i can go and watch the fireworks tml.

woah. i think this post is kinda long. haha. oh yes.. i bought this deo body spray and whenever i spray it, my sis would say that i smell like a guy. the smell wasnt really nice, but i think i got used to it. haha. and today my shoulder hurts so much. i think it's because of training ytd. i need a massage. but when kitru just pressed a bit, it hurts damn freaking pain. so im feeling damn freaking uncomfortable most of the time, especially when im studying. the best moment is when i lie down on my bed, with my soft pillow to lie on, which makes my shoulder much more comfortable. and i dont wanna get up any more. haha. anw, put lots of the ndp tattoos. haha. 2 on my neck and 2 on my face. [looked like some moron.]wanted to put more but i dont know where else to put, cause i dont wanna put it on my hands and arms, unless it fills my whole arm, but there's not enough. haha. and i guess li shan was kinda annoyed?haha. kept asking her to help me put. haha(:

anw, just wanna say sorry to someone who i shall not name. someone who i think has to change some of her ways. and not putting too much hatred in her heart. hopefully she know it's her.

life, it's crazy how somethings never work out.

Labels: you'll never know what life has for you(:

you're magnicficent, eternally, wonderful, glorious.

days past really fast. and tml.. it's the start of the week again. haiz. nvm. i shall enjoy studying!(: haha. alrights. ytd didnt study, as usual. morning- went to tpjc for some netball match for the teachers. pl won first. my gosh and it's quite freaky umiring. especially when everyone keep telling you all the mistakes the players made on court which you did not blow for. [ okay it's quite comfusing. haha(: ]

alrights. suppose to go and eat wuth the netballers. but i end up going home because my sister wants my family to watch her dance. i thought it'd be only seeing her dancing and it wouldnt last so long. instead it's some chirtian thingy. very interesting and hilarious. but i was damn tired. so i slept while they were talking. i could hardly open my eyes. haha. alrights. then after that. went to suntec city to eat our dinner. and we shopped for awhile. thanks to my father. haha. he told my mum to buy something nice for us. so i've got a new tshirt and my other sisters dont have anything. haha.

alrights. and my oldest sister is going to austraila tonight at 12 am. hmm actually it's tml morning at 12 am. haha. but it's only gonna be for a week. wanted to take her room while she's gone. sad. and thank god im not gonna miss training. thank god she changed the date. hooray!(: alrights. physio tml. dont know what time. im so dead. haha. alrights. and it's gonna be my first and last physio. until my doctor come back from his 'holiday' haha. alrights.

common test are nearing. and im not prepared, except for maths. haha. alrights gotta study now. yeah. enjoy your day folks!(:

she really know where to get all these phrases huh?(:

Labels: different or same?

get off my back and into my game.

the week's finally over! i thank god for every friday. had lit test today. didnt know what the hell i was writing. mostly crap. haha. and my stomach is so damn irritating. the pain comes and go. and i just feel so giddy. when can i recover. and my day's been kinda boring, especially emaths. wah she's damn freaking boring can! and she's damn unreasonable lah. wth!? alrights. oh and chinese is kinda fun!. haha. didnt really know what i was doing. a math was the most fun today.
didnt go for training. cause of my damn stomach. alrights. monday not going training again. have the physio. cant change. changed too many times for netball.

alrights. tml going to tpjc to help out in the netball match. looking forward to it!(:yaye!. and guess what. im the person who flips the score board. such a great role!. haha. alrights. going out to eat with them after that. cant wait. it's been a long time since we gone out tgh again.

alrights. and im making a guess that the anonymous person is c____. otherwise she wouldnt say ' you can stop blaming everyone' wth? did i blame everyone? certainly not!. and i didnt even blame her. if she said that because of the previous post, im not blaming her, but i p___ her. cant she understand?

'life is good; just dont expect anything out of it.' got it from someone who spend most of his time on the com. haha(:

Labels: alrightty.(:

another phrase from the wise ( the one iltm )
'success is not about having the right cards, but about playing the wrong ones properly.'


I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

maybe this is how you feel.
you always make the same mistakes again. you're always broken inside.(well that's what you always tell me) you have too many problems. you've been rejected so many times.somehow you dont know how to be strong. you have no place to go. you hide your feelings.i can tell that you're almost losing your mind. you dont have faith in yourself. you're just lost. lost inside.

Labels: my guess.