Monday, March 31, 2008,
i went to bao my leg. no pe for 1 week. (: anw, napfa is starting next week. i hate incline pull-ups. cant seem to get an A. anw, i got fooled today. stupid pea and kee. it's tml idiots!.okay. emo is back.i miss lovely, badly.
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
im pissed easily. so dont try.
aww man, this sucks. i need a hug now. ):
Labels: take away my love.
9:22 PM
Saturday, March 29, 2008,
I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight
im growing fatter by the minute. ): i need to exercise, especially play basketball.
-where are you? i think you're trying to avoid. are you? hmm; go on, break it. it hurts so bad already.
Labels: can i still trust?
9:58 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008,
weikee!. yeah! let's find more people before playing. (:
beauty was in sight. (:
alrights. lunched w netballers. sad pea and kee. oh and did i mention that pea loves my unglam.. A LOT!. she's like my number one fan!!. she just keeps taking pics of me. unglam or glam, she keeps it. crazy fellow. ohwell, who can blame her. she's just a pea. just a small green. (: okay back. anw, you know those people who comes up to you and ask you if you wanna donate money or talk about their company and stuff. yep meet one of them at ps. this guy just came up to me and eliz, and i was trying to avoid him. i just kept walking faster and faster and said that i was rushing. obviously he knew that i wasnt in a rush. only that i dont wanna listen to his such-a-waste-of-time talk. and then, there was another guy. he came up to us a just showed us a coupon of some sort. didnt even said a word. are you mute?
okay. today has been a tiring day. sports day. screaming and shouting. ~ahh.. running for relay. searching for you. walking to srgn mrt station. spending the rest of the day at kallang just sitting down. it's really hard work!.
alrights. tml will be the final game. will be missing netball.. (: time to study really hard for o'levels. oh this sucks. im still slacking, yo. aww, man. okay. im feel kinda sick of everything now. maybe im just tired.
aiights. goodnites.
Labels: i wont hesitate no more.
10:23 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008,
tried to take a picture of love
didnt think i'd miss her that much
i wanna fill this new frame
but it's empty.
maybe we're trying, trying too hard
maybe we're torn apart
maybe the timing is beating our hearts
we're empty
the sec4s had their last training on tues. last game will be tml. im so gonna miss netball.. it's just not the same anymore.not used to it. miss all those complains and all those scoldings and stupid, fun stuff we did together. i think that i'll feel as though something is missing. "but it's empty." ):
anw, something is just not right. sometimes, i feel as though something is happening behind my back. i think im thinking too much. tsk!. see what i mean. maybe i just miss you so much.
what will it be like not to have anymore training? i think i'll just feel very uncomfortable. argh. and my mum is so happy cause now i'll have more time to study. i can stay as a prisoner at home. argh. okay. maybe studying will be fun.. but, i still need to do my exercises and i wanna play basketball every once a week since there's no more netball.. anyone in the favour to join me? anw, im thinking of joining bedok.. okay im having second thoughts.
my boo.
Labels: we're empty.
8:19 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008,
Amazing love, how can it be
that You, my King would die for me?
Amazing love and i know it's true
and it's my joy to honor You
in all i do, i honor You.
went church today. it's easter sunday!. it's been a long time since i had fun during church. and i was really touched by one of the videos that they showed today. i am AMAZED. watch horton (??).. you know.. the elephant show?. ya. i find it kinda stupid lah.when i find a show stupid, i'll somehow just daydream in the middle of the show. okay. it's not really stupid lah. maybe i just find it boring. cause i watch cartoon almost everyday.. (:
alrights. whoever is free, go watch kevjumba. funny guy. oh and go watch jeff dunman too.
http://youtube.com/profile_videos?user=kevjumba&p=r -kevjumba
http://youtube.com/watch?v=20fyqJfUJA8 - jeff dunman
alrights. anw, i feel ready for tml's game, but i still dont feel that ready yet.. hmm.. okay.. im scared now.. damn it!.
Labels: maybe im blind.
6:56 PM
Saturday, March 22, 2008,
scream and cry. who cares anyway.FREAK!.
i should shut my mouth more often. i need to think.
gloria- i really need a hug. ):
moy, :D, f, jocleen- thanks.
:D, f- who are you?
zhixian- im really scared.
im getting more afraid as monday gets closer. i feel so stressed cause of monday's game. im afraid i wont perform. im afraid there wouldnt be any water break. im really afraid that i wont be able to do it.
okay. tml, i'll be going to church. i remember the last time i went was last year december. that's been a long time.
Don’t tell me how life is
Cause I don’t really don’t want to know
Don’t tell me how this game ends
Cause we’ll just see how it goes
damn it, freak!.
okay. this sucks. go away.Labels: im going down in flames.
9:43 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008,
damn it. i cant take it anymore. im so tired. i cant breathe. my energy is draining.. i need a break.. i think i keep too much inside. i know im such a bitch these few days. im so angry these few days. i wanna scream my lungs out! and i wanna cry.. somehow, im praying that i'll get sick and also praying that i'll not get sick. how contradicting. arghh.. and i cant live without water.. anw, when i was training, i was damn tired.. wanted to give up.. then all i could think of was the song that we sang today..how wonderful, how beautiful
name above every name
exulted high.
how wonderful, how beautiful
jesus, your name
name above every name
jesus.
i feel like giving up..
i wanna scream!
i wanna cry..
it's been a tiring day, yet a fruitful one.
it's been a sad day for me..
Labels: i want a hug..
9:58 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008,
hello, just felt like sharing something. i went to my friends facebk, then i saw this video on nick vujicic. i think it's nice. (: go take a look if you have the time. (:
how much can God really forgive?
"The most important thing I can tell you, however, is that God loves us and is ready to forgive anyone who truly repents and trusts Christ as their Lord and Savior. No matter what you've done, God still loves you and wants you to be part of His family forever. Jesus' words are for you: "My Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life" (John 6:40).Don't stay on your present road any longer; it will never give you the happiness and peace you seek. Instead, by a simple prayer of faith confess your sins to God and ask Christ to come into your life. Your life can be different beginning today."
okay, and i quote this from lifewithoutlimbs.org. there's lots that you can read from there. (:
and i also have something to share. i saw this video that my sister's church made. and i still remembered this phrase that one of the actor said. it goes something like this. "if i cant bring you to accept christ, im like a bad friend who's doing nothing and watching you drown." okay.. something like that.. it's like our christian friends talk about God to us, yet we dont want to listen. they are trying to save our lives, yet we ignoring them.
anw, actually, i was damn freaking angry for the past few days. im thinking.. what blahblahblah do i have? im really pissed. like almost at every single small thing. look, i hardly show how i actually feel lah.. haiz.. argh. i just hate it and i msged people saying "hello" cause i was angry and pissed. but now,.. idk.. i just wanna finish o'lvl now and 'lax for the rest of the year.. okay.. im looking forward to december holidays. and where i can get away from everyone and everything for a few moment. (: okay.. goodbye. i need to study now plus do homework.
i think im improving my chinese. im so happy. (:
Labels: im not afraid to cry;
8:05 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008,
all smiles for today,cause it's the first day of school of term 2. :Dand i didnt finish my holiday homework, yet im here blogging. :/
anw, tml will be the first national game. im so excited and scared. i really hope that we'll win. (: alrights.
happy first day of term 2 people. (: smiles. (:
and oh, im into you
and girl, no one else would do
with every kiss, every hug
you make me fall in love
Labels: all smiles.
7:44 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008,
im thinking of something evil. muahaha! (:alrights. training today was good. well, i think it was. after much physical training, we finally did court work. (: yep and after some inspirational talk from mrs augustin, i feel that we can beat rgs. and after the i look at the schedule, i feel that we might have a chance of winning top4. (: anw, im excited and scared for rgs game. (:
talk about studying. ugh.. idk why, but i want o levels to come soon!. it's tiring to wait for the stupid o levels. and i just want to finish it now and graduate. well, maybe just for a and e math. then i can concentrate on my other subs.
ugh......
someone: okay. then who are you?
jessica: why not?.. ):
D.: crazy..
pea: some people have nothing better to do.
okay. im not gonna let that nameless freak spoil my day. soab. (: out w pea tml! (:
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
Labels: i'll be the reason for your pain.
8:46 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008,
omg! i love this pic so much.. hahah!!. i have a feeling that she'll kill me when school reopens. ):
kee- hello weikee. thanks for tagging on my tagboard so many times.. must you do that? oh well, you're bored. and my tagboard is entertaining you!. my blog so fun right? of course lah!. haha. (: okay.. i want to play bball (: and if you wanna cut my hair, you'll have to pay like a 100 bucks or more first. (: it's worth it!. (: trust me.
someone: alrights. do you have a name?
okay. im shaking now. i dont think it's because of the coldness. or maybe it is. idk what it is lah.WHAT'S WRONG?. ):
alrights. training today was effective but..( there's always a but.. ) it was damn tiring. and my legs were kinda numb when im running the, i think 10th round for 2.4km.
oh and jessica can cook!! the pasta damn nice!. just like heaven. okay maybe not. haha. (: I WANT MORE!!. and i bet vivien's gonna post my unglam pic on her blog.. ):
okay there's training tml. happy training people.. (:
alrights. and all the assholes, please start running. cause you're gonna die if i find out who's that f* big mouth is.
-im pissed.
excuse me while i throw up.
Labels: lovers and liars.
9:25 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008,
yeah, you got that right. i wanna cut my hair. but my mum dont allow. so.. anyone wanna do the honor of cutting my hair?. dont worry, you dont have to charge me. and you'll get to keep some of my hair as souvenirs!!. (: see i've saved your brains cells from thinking how much i must pay you and there's free gifts along the way. (: anw, since we're friends, why not just give me a free hair cut!? (: but on the other hand, if you do a pretty bad job, you'll pay for cutting my hair. (: well, it's worth the experience!.serisously, i wanna cut my hair. i think it's too long. i can actually tie it alr. but when i tie it, it looks weird cause my hair is layered, you see. ): so it's like fireworks.- messy hair.):
well, today is a pretty boring day.. hmm. i dont like it. ): i want to go out and study. it's damn boring staying at home.. seeing the same environment everyday. well, it's my home. what can i say.. ):
alrights back to my geog. and today have my fav programme. (: yippee!!.
happy mugging at mugland, muggers!. (:
tell me, can your heart still break when it has stopped beating?
Labels: forever and today.
4:34 PM
Sunday, March 9, 2008,
today is sunday. usually i would hate sunday at 12:59pm cause it would mean that there's one min left to monday. but today's different!. it's the MARCH HOLIDAYS!. im so damn happy! (: okay. anw, to my fellow teammates, i told our seniors that we got into top4 and nationals. (: and this is what supranee says:hey..thanks for sharing the good news. CONGRATS!!! so all your hard work has finally paid off huh! n i bet netball wont be closing down anytime soon. haha...so when are you guys playing in the nationals? do tell us, we'll come support ya'll whenever we can. oh man...so exciting! great job ya'll! send my congrats to the team. thanks
you know, im so proud of my team. thanks for all your hard work that we made it this far. love you guys lots. (:
okay. moving on to boredom and growing fat.. seriously, i want to go to school tml. cause i wont be doing anything.. well, except study math the whole morning.. wait. im suppose to do math the whole morning for this whole week. damn it! alrights. im so gonna be sick of math. i'll be math-braindead by the end of this week. oh and the part about growing fat.. i am growing fat. IT'S ONLY 2 DAYS!. i cant help eating. idk why. i seem to be hungry almost every min.. okay.. not EVERY min. i'll be a GIANT ball by then. hahah. (:
okay. i wanna play basketball. anyone wanna join in the fun with me?. it's kinda lonely playing alone. ):
okay and i wanna go out. watch movie or sth. please?.. (:
ohohoh and weikee said that she loves me on my tagboard. i love you too!!..
i wanna cut my hair.
im so frustrated.
i just wanna JUMP!.
i just wanna JUMP!.
Labels: dear love.
7:54 PM
Friday, March 7, 2008,
what is it like?
"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
- Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968)
- Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968)
Labels: so close to that happy ending.
8:02 PM
I never thought that moment would come
when I'd have to look out my window alone,
now I'm watching the stars and still hoping to see
the day when you will come back to me.
hello world.
- i feel gay just saying that. (:alrights. we finally got our trophies, but im still not satisfied. ):
right now, our goal is to get top 8 nationals first, then top4 nationals. (:
and today had meet-the-parents session. okay. i did very badly. other than combine humans and geog, i didnt expect to get such low marks for the rest of my subs. especially my e and a math. im sad. ):
im so gonna chiong for e and a math and other subs next term. oh and next term the netballers will be going nationals to play. we made history in PL.
I LOVE MY TEAM A LOT. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO DAMN MUCH.
alrights.. so that means im gonna be damn busy. i hate it. cause there will be no time for my all time stress relief sport- BASKETBALL!. i miss playing it alr. ): .. it's alright. i'll have loads of time after my o levels. and i'll have many dates with my fav people. (:
okay moving on to this week. i've not been studying. mummy's kinda unhapy with my results and me coming back home late. - she wants netball to lose so i'll have time to study. so mean right? oh well, parents want their child to get good results so that they'll have a goo future. cause they wont be here forever. ):
mum says: eh! there's 2 chocolate left!
*eats one*
mum says: now there's 1 left!.
:/ and she's my mum.
Labels: you said to me that it's all alright.
6:49 PM
Sunday, March 2, 2008,
sometimes, i just want you to shut up.
and sometimes, i just want me to shut up.
hmm..
training was fine. except the stupid rain. well, anw, not quite satisfied with myself today.what's wrong.. ):
okay. tml is monday. bleah. and right now, i feel so sian.. sian of almost everything, man. im so tired. physically and mentally. i think i should spend my time wisely. i know i havent been studying.. no mood. but this year, whether i have the mood or not, i must study. argh!. i hate it. i hate it when im forced to do something that i dont wanna do. this sucks. okay. im gonna sleep now.
-tml's gonna be a new day. (:
Can you hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am
smmst.ilh.(:
thanks a lot fiona poon. (:
Labels: cause it's ridiculous like that..
8:54 PM