that beautiful face just appeared infront of me.

the kaleidoscope was alright. i went to watch it for FFFFRRREEEEEE!. yaye. haha. of course i have to do sth to watch a free performance. haha. went to ursher. omg! damn tiring and boring and the part that i hate the most is the briefing. omg. i was thinking so hard what to say about a good thing and a bad thing i did. haha. and i have to buy a new school socks because they said i have to be in PROPER school u. wah. spent $8 today for the nametag and socks. wth!. a waste of my money. nametag-$5. wth??? siao. the material used also very lousy. so flexible. then i can have $3 back if i return the nametag within 1 month. wth? wahliao. my nametag has always been like that lah. and like no one catch me lah. until today. wth.
anw, i think that the handbell , dance, d'arts and guitar did well today. i dont like the rest. cause i dont like the piece. well. too bad lah.
and today i sort of got scolded by my mum. she said that im like busy everyday. where got time to study. ya i agree with her. but i like to do all these things. and it's like i cant say no. ytd when mrs tng asked me if i wanna be a chew house committee next year, i just said okay. wth was i thinking? no i wasnt thinking at all. haiz. guess im gonna be busy next year again. someone please remind me not to take up anything anymore. i wanna be FFFRRREEEEEE!!!. freee i tell you.FREE!!!and so i'll have time for studying then my mum will have nth to say. hah!.
ohay and i didnt realise that the concert hall was sort of big lah. because it's like squeezy. wah and the prefect rooms have aircon. not bad eh. some more got sofa. and quite small. and it's like so unfair. why cant peerlites have their own room too? huh?
and today. i saw that beautiful face. and i wanna see that face again. she's just so beautiful. i dont care if you think otherwise. she'll always remain beautiful in my heart. and today i humiliate myself by putting my socks so high and i wasnt wearing school shoes. omg! the socks doesnt even go with the shoe lah. damn ugly. and i never ever wore my socks that high before and it felt damn uncomfortable. and so ugly. omg!.
ytd is the day that i will wanna forget. dont wanna remind myself of what happen. but it just seem that i cant. oh well. what happened has already happened. nth i can do to undo it. because we cant turn back time. ohya. and those scientist or whatever inventers thinks that they can go back time or to the future using a time machine, you're wrong! wrong i tell ya. it's impossible come on man. lets think about it. how cant we like even go to the future when the past have not even happened yet. yeah. it's impossible i tell ya. IMPOSSIBLE!. so whoever. wants to invent a time machine, YOU'RE JUST WASTING YOUR TIME!. okay. only stupid people will want to 'invent' a time machine.
okay. anw, CT ARE COMING!. omg!. haven study finish yet. im so gonna fail again. mum's gonna talk to my teacher. wants to " complain" to my teacher.gonna tell my teacher that i dont have time for this and that. and so i have to stop doing all these things. wahliao. i tell her i dont want her to talk to my teacher lah. but she insist lah. wahliao. im gonna get into so much trouble.

hurting you is the last thing i'll do.

i saw you coming. my heart was beating really fast. i was smling cause i finally got the chance to see you again.but it wasnt enough. i wanna hold you tight and i dont want to ever let go. because whenever i see your face,your smile whenever i just see YOU! i just smile you're the one who makes me smile like never before. you are the one. but i'll never have you. as long as you're happy.im happy.

Labels: i just want you to be happy.

i realised that i've been blogging for like almost everyday? okay. it's gotta stop. but i just cant help it. omg!. i just love writing stuff on my blog.haha. even though i have like nth to write about haha. okayokay. i gotta go oofline and start studying. my gosh!. im just like machine.

Labels: say you love me too

your eyes still glows, how i love your smile.

training was ggggooooooooddd. i just love today's training. although it's quite tiring, i just love it. and i had napfa before training. wah damn tiring and i slowed down on my 2.4 . how can it be? i thought i was running quite fast until zhixian and jiale caught up with me. haiz. anw, im very happy with my napfa result. i've got a gold for napfa. yaye. damn happy. heh. ya. and now im not the " cap" and gloria isnt the " vice cap". guess who? it's weiying and chinny!. haha. anw, everybody has been training very hard. GOOD JOB!. dont give up and lets do this together. WE'RE A TEAM! yaye:)
ohya. and today the canteen did not have any MEAT! omgosh i can die lah. whats' with all the vegetables. yuck!. ya i know it's good for me but i hate it so much. and i heard that the porridge from the stall 2 has worms init. omgosh. im never eating that again. yuck. damn disgusting lah. the auntie must be blind not to see the worm.
ya and common test is coming really soon and i haven finish studying any subs. except for maths. DUH!. haha.
and im damn tired. really feel like sleeping. but have to study. wth. i want to be let off for tonight. damn tired.
and that stupid thief. give me back my wallet and mp3. you fucking moron!.
anw, dont have much time left. gotta study. goodbye!:)

the whole world is crashing and again i said the whole world is crashing down.

Labels: it's ggggooooooooooddddd

woah. meeting was quite okay. thought i was gonna get like scoldings, but melvin too nice lah.haha.actually, it's a good thing that im involve in peerlite and this sec1 camp. haha. having fun. make new friends. working with different people. can grow in my leadershp skills. heh. well. today is a tiring day.
and my father came back ytd. yaye. gonna take car to school again, and i wont be afraid if i'll be late, cause i wont with my father driving. if it's my sis, oh man!. it'll be damn embarrassing lah. i bet that she'll get stuck in traffic.haha. she'll be the cause of the traffic jam.haha. no lah. can not underestimate my sister's driving. not bad lah. but when she change the lane, it's damn scary. not smooth. can die if you dont put your safety belt. that's why it's call a SAFETLY BELT! haha. and she always panic when it comes to parking. it took like damn long for her to park lah. haha. damn long but funny. haha. ohya. havent say the main point yet. my father bought me and 2 other sis mp3s. yaye!. thanks a lot!. love him.!heh. but it's quite difficult to use.
omg i miss my old mp3 and wallet. maybe i was too vulgar. okay.
dear thief, please return my wallet and mp3. be my guest, take the money. i just want my mp3 and wallet back. so i wanna get it back by next week okay. sorry i was too harsh on my previous post. so i want my wallet and mp3 back. or else you'll get it from ms gan and mr yeo!.
okay. anw. today, andrea had home econ. wah i seriously had that class a lot. not the pratical, but the theory. wah! the cake is actually edible. not bad. haha. just that it needs to be softer. haha. dont worry. there's room for improvment.yeah? haha. keep on trying and work harder yeah?. haha.
anw, i manage to stay awake for social studies. not bad eh? i usually fall asleep. cause the teacher is damn boring and her voice is so monotone. omg! who can stay awake lah. thank God that the teacher changed. sorry. no offence. haha. ms intan can make me stay awake. no bad right? haha.
anw. ct is around the corner and i havent even really started studying yet. how pathetic is that. my mind is filled with all the sec1 camp stuff.
so sec1s: you better enjoy yourselves during the camp or else i'll feel that i've wasted my fucking time doing this stuff. and we planned so hard. scarifice our precious time to plan all this things. BETTER ENJOY YOURSELVES!. cause you're also paying $63.haha.
anw, it's gonna be 11. past my bedtime. nites.:)

Labels: my new mp3

life is beautiful!

was reading my friend's blog. made me realise how much i should treasure all my friends. not only for my netball mates, but for others too. i've always put netball first in my life. and i think it's quite unfair to my other friends. but i feel that im closer to my mates than you guys. sorry. will try to be fair.
anw, we should treasure our friends, because the friends we made in secondary school will last for a very long tim. even a lifetime. treasure all your friends. cause they are just so precious. i just love them so much.
anw, dont you think time passes really fast. it just seems like ytd i was a sec1. and now, im a sec3. soon- sec4. i cant believe that i still remember my sec4 seniors when i was in sec1. though they were fierce, they really nice too. i love them. and how i miss them badly. but no matter
what, they'll always be in my heart.
being a sec3 isnt really easy. that's how i feel. but my senior said that sec3 was suppose to be a wild year and not to let it pass by me. and as long as i just pass, i can graduate to sec4, but that's not i want. as you know. im a slow learner. and i want to have great results so i can go to my dream school. where i'll meet coach mun again. hopefully.
talked to her. woah. gave me lots of advice. didnt really had the chance to say anything. she keep typing and typing.but it was good advice. thanks a lot. you made me smile again.
i thank GOD that i met you.
i thank GOD that HE put you in my life.
i thank GOD that HE put me in this school.
i thank GOD that HE put me in netball with this bunch of beautiful people.
i thank GOD that HE made me a leader, giving me a chance to grow in my leadership.
i believe that GOD has always been there for me.
i believe that HE led me to the right path.
HE has always been there for me
and i believe that HE'S always there for all of you.
HE wouldnt let us down.
at times, i feel that i've let HIM down.
sometimes, i think
- why is there a GOD?
- why would GOD create us when HE knows that we're gonna betray HIM?( asked my sister that, but she doesnt know how to answer. well maybe it's not meant to be known.)
sometimes i just feel that i really dont understand HIM
HE'S just mysterious.
but i love HIM!.

you were there when i was down.

Labels: GOD is good all the time.

just a reminder to everybody that my birthday is coming after eliz's and gloria's birthday. it's on the 24 of may if you dont know.haha. so i expect to get lots and lots of presents hor. alrights. oh and if you're wondering what i want to get for my birthday. here's a clue: i lost my wallet. (get me a nice one) and my mp3. of course i dont expect you to get a mp3 for me. it's crazy. anw, im getting a new one. haha. ya. i know that im like so thick skin. haha. but i seriously want another wallet. (i dont expect everyone to get me a wallet or else i'll have ton of wallets)haha. so buy whatever you wanna get me!. buy one of you MUST BUY me a wallet. alrights. thanks:). i'll love you if you get me presents. haha. (im telling you know, so that you'll have time to save up$$$!. hehe. )

if you're wondering why im writing it this small and this light, the ans is up there. hehe

Labels: birthdays are coming

it was all just a lie.
you dont love me even though you said you did.
your mind and heart is just playing tricks.
im sorry

Labels: the pain i couldnt get over.

go what a hell day!. i lost my wallet and i think my mp3. damn that fucking person who took it. she'll will die a horrible death!. wth. everything's like inside. even the muffi day ticket is inside lah. i bet no one will still be keeping it. and my physio card is in it also lah. and i needa change my appointment. shit lah. dont know the number. not only that lah. my house key. all my neoprints. cant believe that i lost it. and im damn sad that i lost it lah. at first i thought that my friends were just playing with me, but WTH! it's really missing lah. fucking bitch!. you better give me back my wallet and mp3!. or you'll die of a horrible dead. all your intestines will be riped out!. and all your blood will be drained. fucking person. well, it's also my fault that i lost it. i shouldnt put it in the classrooms with no teachers or anyone inside. okay. i've learnt my lesson.so GIVE IT BACK TO ME!bitch!. anw. the school system caused me to lose my wallet and my mp3. fucking school system. we should have our own classrooms lah. and when we lost our things, we are at least 70% sure that it's one of our classmates. anw, who will be so stupid to take it from us. and we can actually lock the door when we go for pe or recess. now we cant even lock that fucking door because we're from different class and we are moving around FYI! that show that the school system sucks lah. TIME TO CHANGE BAACK TO THE OLD ONE!. anw. it's damn annoying that we have to decorate other classrooms that are not our homeroom. what the hell. since the classrooms are the teachers, the teacher should clean their own class rooms and decorate it themselves. not using us. just because you are a higher rank than us doesnt mean that you can make us do it. idiot!. and i HATE the table arrangements. wth lah. no mood to study anymore in that fucking school!. i hate this school used to love it but now it sucks!. wth. they said that the teachers should have their own homerooms so that they chould start the lessons early and not wasting time. and whatever shit lah. but in the end, they are still late. why cant one teacher be allocated to just only one classroom. and not sharing with other teachers. then they wont need a STUFFROOM! no aircon for you!. it's damn difficul to find a teacher when we keeo moving around and it's also difficult to find someone from another class. wth. i hate this fucking school system. and they lie to us about the cafe. it's not even built yet. and the concert hall is like damn small lah. the picture like very big. just trying to cheat our feelings lah. what do you think we are? small kids that are fun to lie to? and gets pushed around? come one man!. we know how to think lah. we're not like animals. and we having feeling lah. fucking school. force us to do things that we dont wanna do. only make life suckier. wah. i just wish that the school will go back to the holding school at least it feels more like home and the pe store aint that far from the netball court. whoever builts this school doesnt have brain. and why do we need a sheltered assembly? we can go to our classrooms, if you give us one!.anw, the assembly area is too small. and they said that they made the hall bigger. my head lah. still so small. and the table sucks. so is the chairs. and the canteen is far too small for lost of classes. DID YOU EVEN USE YOUR HEAD BEFORE YOU MADE THIS TIMETABLE?! fucking teachers and the library has 2 doors. but we only can use one. wth lah. so what's the point of the other door?huh?
idiot school!. and what's with the lift lah. only for teachers to use. and only for us, if we have heavy thigs to carry. wahliao. i hope that hte teachers will grow FAT!lazy teachers. everyday only know how to use lift. and the flag pole sucks lah. so fast got the rusty sound. wahliao. then the netball court is not actual size. got so many the badminton court. what's the point of making so many badminton court when you're gonna take it out anw, just like netball. if we dont win anything, you're just gonna take us out. wth.! cant you think for the students. so what if we dont win. huh? we love that game. it's our passion. it's our life. if you take that away from me, i'll feel that life will be pointless. see! that shows that netball means so much to us. dont you want your girl to be happy? idiot school only want money. go and die lah. go and take from the primary school if you must. they are so rich. ask them to donate. dont ask us. moreover, they are affiliated to us lah.we CONNECTED!make them donate!. anw, the primary school girls are much better at raising funds than us. their cards will always be full!. cause they are so cute that's why people will donate for them. so next time you want money, go ask from the primary school. bitch!.

anw, training was okay lah. dont really feel tired. but when we were running around the assembly area, my knee suddenly felt quite painful. wth. i dont wanna get injured again. it sucks. some of you might think it's cool, cause most of the seniors are injured and they have to wear the guard. what. you're not injured also can wear. no one's stopping you. so no point making yourself injured. its not worth it. you'll regret in your later years. and it's not really tiring running around the assembly area. i dont feel tired.anw, im just so damn sad that my wallet and mp3 is gone.
YOU BETTER WATCH OUT THIEF!

Labels: fucking person is gonna fucking die.

i need you more than ever.

you dont run with the crowd
you go your own way
you dont play after dark
you light up my day
got your own kind fo style
that sets you apart
baby, that's why you captured my heart

i know sometimes you feel like you dont fit in
and this world doesnt know what you have within
when i look at you, i see something rare
a rose that can grow anywhere
and there's no one i know that can compare

what makes you different, makes you beautiful
what's there inside you, shines through to me
in you eyes i see, all the love i'll ever need
you're all i need, oh girl
what makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

you got something so real
you touched me so deep
see material things
dont matter to me
so come as you are
you've got nothing to prove
you won me with all that you do
and i wanna take this chance to say to you

what makes you differnet, makes you beautiful
what's there inside you, shines through to me
in your eyes i see, all the love i'll ever need
you're all i need, oh girl
what makes you different, makes you beautiful

you dont know how you touched my life.
oh in so many ways i just cant describe
you taught me what love is suppose to be
you saw the little things that made you beautiful to me

what makes you different, makes you beautiful
what's there inside you, shines through to me
in you eyes i see, all the love i'll ever need
you're all i need, oh girl
what makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

everything you do is beautiful
love you give shines right through me
everything you do is beautiful
you're beautiful to me

i love this song a lot, because it describes her very well. especially the chorus.
what makes you different, makes you beautiful- she's so differnt from the rest. and that makes her so besutiful to me. although some people says that she's not pretty nor beautiful, in my heart, she'll always be.

Labels: you give me wings

i wanna hold you tight and never let you go.

Labels: i want you.

she looks into my eyes, im alive again.
and when she says goodbye, i just died again.

omg! i need to do it all over again!. its gonna take up a lot of my time. omg! mum's gonna scold me. so busy omgomgomg! someone help me!. i juat feel like dying right now. i dont wanna do anything anymore. i wanna give up. i dont wanna be a treasurer anymore. i dont wanna do the thing anymore. tests are coming. and im still doing this stuff. im so gonna fail again.

she's the only love i've known.
and now she' gone away.

Labels: broken promises.

what makes you different, makes you beautiful.

OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!. I CLICKED IT. I CLICKED IT. OMG!..
wah. i think the sec1 "i" discover camp thing is killing me. i dont even dare to send an email to the teachers or that melvin guy. OMG!. im damn scared that it's offending. ahh!. although my sis said it isnt, im still scared that it's offending.ahh! just pray that everything will be alright. i needa calm down. cool down claris. nothing wrong is gonna happen. chill man! chill.

okay. im calm now. nothing's gonna happen. okay.. im very calm now. thanks to someone. yeah. haha. anw. time to study again.haiz.

lie to me

Labels: i tried so hard to say goodbye

it hurts me so much and im not quite sure if i care anymore.

today, well suppose to study and do homework. and suppose to wait for the melvin guy to reply my email, which he didnt. omg im so dead lah. needa see mrstng again. haiz. but in the i went to some stupid appointment at punggol. then went to jessica's house to do the geo thing till 430. then me and pea walked home. from jessica's house, which is like near the holding school. to heartland mall.almost went missing. then we cut through the kovan cc. went the school direction. wah. walked like hell lah. damn tired.almost got lost when we walked to heartland. damn far lah. mg!. okay so now im home. with no dinner. pray that my godbro will be out of the army tonight. so i can eat with him. miss him so much. no one to cut my hair for me. and i hardly get to see him. and cant go to church with him anymore. anw, i dont go to church anymore. heh. and that oliva called me today.[ chong! see lah. do sth about it. haha. ]and she dont wanna put down the phone. wth.

ANDANDAND! i've change my watch batt!. it's no longer 7 oclock..wahaha!. so happy. haha. for the past 3 days, i brought my watch to school cause i thought that im gonna change the batt after school. but i didnt. so everytime, when my friend ask me for the time, it's always 7 oclock.haha:) anw, gotta find my dinner now.wahaa.

you've been rejected

Labels: the same mistakes

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you


You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you so
don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow


Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Labels: dont you see im breaking down

a fucking waste of my time is all that you've become.

The hand of my clock strikes two
In times when I got the best of you
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life
Where I, did something right.

I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time

You pick me apart
While I search for witty things to say
"You'll never amount to anything anyway"
And think that I'm impressed with your one night standsand your contagious kiss
I'm trying to get this right
Yeah, cause I'm ridiculous like that

I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time

I'll keep this as
A constant reminder
Of the nights I spent holding onto her
And rest assured I'm moving on
I miss you less, with each day you're gone

I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time

the choice is up to you
to find out what to do
to let it go or keep kicking me to the side
i'm getting tired of your shit
and i can't deal with it
i gave up giving in, and now it's time to say goodbye

Labels: ultimate you

i love you. i love you. i love you.

TGIF!
woah. i can say that ytd's training was quite alright. at least i didnt felt like dying. but we ran more than 25 rounds around the track. that's a lot. but to some trackers, it's not. and guess what? im damn happy. thanks a lot!. and my mortal like dont like to write to me. so sad lah. and my angel.. haiz. handwriting like shit.haha. sorry. (i know you used your left hand )haha.
anw, thanks!:) and it seems that no one knows who is my angel lah. im so damn curious. but i dont wanna spoil the fun.yeah? haha. and today was damn boring. damn tired. TGIF!. i can rest but when monday comes, it's training again. haiz. it's killing me. oh well and today suppose to discuss about the geog project but plan to do tml. which means- wake up early, go jessica's house and do the project, then watch PRISON BREAK! yeah!. haha. im mad about PRISON BREAK, so is pearlynn- chiamy- i like to call her that. chiamy!.haha. chiamy, chiamy, chiamy. oh she's gonna kill me if she read my blog.haha. just pray that she wont read.

and i wanna have a raise on my allowance. it's not enough lah. i spend more than what im suppose to spend. well. im still growing and im playing netball. so need food!.haha. and im bored right now. and so many things to do but im lazy. and i think im gonna die on monday. she's gonna kill me. and that oliva lim. just like her cousin. and she keeps saying "hihihihihihihi" to me. wah. seriously dont feel like saying "hi" anymore. wasting my breath. shh. dont tell her.haha.

im missing you. im missing you. im missing you.

what the hell lah! stop using my words. stop using other people's words. cant you have your own original way of speaking?? it's damn irritaing when you keep copying others. just stop it.

I take back everything I've said
You wore those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway
Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

the only one i'll ever need.

Labels: once again, she made me smile.

If she only knew
What I knew but couldn't say
If she could just see
The part of me that I hid away
If I could just hold her in my arms again
And just say "I love you"
But she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
If she only knew

today.. such a looonnnngggg and booorrrriiinngg day. it's sucks man.
the world is turning upside down. i hate it. i dont even know what im doing lah. i seriously dont even realise that time had past so quickly. and next month, it's already the common test. it's damn fast. dont seem to have the time to study. shouldnt have joined peerlite and signed up for all those things. i should have thought about it first before even joining it. i cant cope. there's just too many things. my time managment sucks lah. last year was so much better. now i dont even have the time to go maths tuition. and i almost failed e maths. the worst thing. first time in my secondary school life that i almost failed maths. shit lah! gotta buck up. someone seriously have to remind me. and im tired. super tired. i just can fall asleep anytime. i seriously think that im gonna retain this year. i cant retain.
please claris. study hard. it's already the 2nd term. i dont think i can even cope sec4. i need time. but i've wasted them away. now it's time to be serious and study hard. no time to joke around. it's just like a living nightmare. everything is like a living nightmare to me. i needa learn how to balance my study time and play time.

i feel so stressed!

she made me feel alive again. she made me smile. thank you so much.

Labels: you made me smile again.

wth do you want?huh!? why must you repeat it again and again? you know that i wont say anything. just leave me alone. im sick and tired!.
the way you treated her was cruel. i just cant stand it. one minute-cold, the next- you started talking to her again. it's damn shit lah. stop all these nonsence can!?

you'll never know how i feel inside. cause i'll never say anything.
and stop all these nonsence.

i just wish that i could be a sec1 again. where all my troubles dont seem to huant me. now it's like a living nightmare. how i wish that i could turn back time. and stay in that timeline forever. never growing old, never worrying about my troubles. forever seeing you was my pleasure. but being with you forever? it's just a dream come true.

You are my ev'rything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Ev'ry night, I pray down on bended knee
That you will always be
My ev'rything
Oh, my everything

Labels: the day i said goodbye to you.

the worst thing happened today. especially after school. the GREATEST shock of my life. it shouldnt have happen. why didnt i pull her back?. why didnt i see it coming?. scared the shit out of me. shall not elaborate. today's napfa was damn boring. the boring-est shit of my life. netballers was suppose to take charge of the napfa. why did you take it away from us? i hate this shit school. fucking school with fucking things. fuck the fucking school lah. used to love this school so much. but now it sucks. thanks to the fucking principle. i dont even feel like im home when i enter the school. when im damn angry or damn depressed, i used to think of coming to this school. (holding school) now i dont even look forward to this fucking school. and i run 2.4 today. omg. the blister sucks lah.

im sorry. shouldnt have went there in the first place. it was a terrible mistake. now i dont even wanna be there to look at you anymore. and i've been thinking real hard. and i've come to my conclusion.

fucking bitch! what the hell do you want lah?! i cant take your shit anymore.

now all i want is to think about her. the sight of her just makes me smile.
her smile is like heaven.
a face that you couldnt get your eyes off.
with a voice so gentle.
i just need to get to know her more.
and now i've realised that i need to see her again.
i need to see her again.
she's perfect.
perfect for almost anyone.
whoever she fall in loves with,
that person is damn lucky to have a girl like her.
i want to have her for myself
but will she be happy?
will she love me back?
actually it doesnt matter who she is really with.
i just want her to be happy.
it'll just hurt me to you sad.

actually, by right, everything's my fault. maybe i shouldnt have come to this school at all. all of you are better off without me. im sorry.

Labels: the shock i shoulnt have

everybody's got something they had to leave behind
one regret from yesterday that seems to grow with time
there's no use looking back or wondering
how it could be now or neither been
all this i know but still i cant find ways to let you go

i wanted to sleep when i came back from camp, but i guess i didnt. too addicted to : PRISON BREAK. damn exciting lah. and i haven eat yet. i dont think there's even dinner. anw, i ate my lunch around 4 plus. so i shouldnt be very hungry. and i guess that im gonna sleep late again. PRISON BREAK! haha. then rachel wong ask me to go to church. but i refuse. of course what. like i said. i seriously dont feel im part of the church. i dont exist there. they dont even konw me. and i dont konw them. anw, time for PRISON BREAK again. haha. im crazy about PRISON BREAK!. that guy is damn smart and stupid at the same time.

because love is a strange and funny thing

Labels: you'll always be my baby.

And I bet you've got every word I said
memorized in your head.
And you'll use every one of them,
and you'll use every one of them against me.

Labels: time flies by, with the sound of your voice

Labels: you know i will.

beauty queen of only eighteen
she had some trouble with herself
he was always there to help her
she always belonged to someone else

i drove for miles and miles
and wound up at you door
i've had you many times but somehow
i want more

i dont mind spending everyday
out on your corner in the ouring rain
look for the girl with the broken smile
ask her if she wants to stay awhile
and she will be loved
she will be loved

tap on my window knock on my door
i want to make you feel beautiful
i know i tend to get insecure
it doesnt matter anymore

it's not always rainbow and butterflies
it's compromise that moves us along
my heart is full and my door's always open
you can come anytime you want

i dont mind spending everyday
out on you corner in the pouring rain
look for the girl with the broken smile
ask her if she wants to stay awhile
and she will be loved
she will be loved

i know where you hide
alone in you car
know all of the things that make you who you are
i know that goodbye means nothing at all
comes back and beg me to catch her every time she falls.

tap on my window knock on my door
i want to make you feel beautiful

i dont mind spending everyday
out on corner in th pouring rain
look for the girl with the broken smile
ask her if she wants to stay awhile
and she will be loved
she will be loved

i tried so hard to say goodbye.

Labels: sunday morning

i will never know how it feels to stand beside
and take your hand when i need some direction.
and i will never know what it's like to see you smiling at me
or know you'd be proud of me.

sec1 induction camp- er.... interesting. the best part was the NIGHT WALK! so fun lah.haha. but damn tired. today had magnicficent journey. which is like the same as amazingrace. just that they change the name and the theme is circuit. quite weird. but quite fun lah. but damn smelly after the amazing race. and the journey is damn LONG!. my group went 2 rounds (from koven to serangoon).wth. damn tired. now i feel like sleeping,but i just cant. dont know why.
and after that, waited till 3 plus for eliz mum to fetch us to compass point to eat lunch. wah. more like tea break. haha. damn hungry lah. by the time we reach there, it's like 4 plus?. then just talk.haha. damn funny. the rachel tan damn funny. haha. the way she acted in the skit when she was pointing to someone. haha. so retarded. ohohoh and we playing the angle and mortal game for 3 weeks. and i got someone so cute!.OMG! i feel so lucky. didnt know that ms chew and mrs tng was playing too. hehe.
then saw rachel wong in school today. you should her ear. OMG! damn big and fat lah. haha. cause of infection. damn gross. eww..and she still owes me her school badge. hehehe.
oh man, and i almost forgot that i have to do something for the sec1 discovery camp. i wish i didnt sign up for it. it's taking up my time. so complicated. and scary. if i do the wrong thing, i'll just die. and im the in-charge. OMG!
omg! and she's online now! ahh. damn happy lah. ahh!. love her love her love her.:)

you just dont get it do you?

if you were mine, i'd be your everything
and you'd be the only thing that i would ever need
if you were mine, i would tell everyone
that you are the only one that i could ever want.

Labels: my love for you is blind

i dont know. i really dont know. but one thing i do know is that i always break your heart. i dont know if it should end or it should continue. i dont know anything. stop asking me. stop asking me. and one thing i know is that im afraid that i'll make the wrong decision. afraid that i'll lose you and you'll never come back to me. afraid that we'll walk on the road treating at each other like strangers. i hate it. i hate it so much.

I don't know
when it all began to simmer down.
Suddenly I don't want you around.
And I'm siting here
I'm drowning in the worries and the fear.
And now I wish it wasn't quite as clear.

my answer is i want to. but i just cant bear to say it. leaving you hurt. cause i know that you've fallen in love with me. deep? i dont know. i just cant say it. im sorry if you read this.

Labels: i guess im lost again

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back.

another boring school day just passed. seriously dont feel like going to school. and i've confirmed 100% that i failed my lit paper.. again. and for the first time- gonna fail maths.(stupid graph) didnt study of course. as usual. but it's time to put the past behind me and start over again. im gonna work hard!(i know that i've said that like a million times. but i still didnt work hard.haha) and i seriously dont know what to write for my english paper next monday. OMG! gonna fail another sub. but i cant. cause it's english. and tml will be another boring day. and there's geog! omg! although it's really interesting, i just cant really get it in my head. THE PROCESS IS TOO LONG! cant memorise. thank God i didnt take lit. cause im already failing lit and worse, it's combined with social studies. i hate social studies so much. cause it's like history. and i failed history since term1 last year. and i was the 2nd last student in the whole level for one of the terms. see! my history is so damn bad. and i plan to fail s.s. but i cant. im only taking 7 subjects. and i wanna go jc. and l1r5= to 6 sub. isit? i think so lah. so which means i only can fail one. but i wanna fail chi too. damn bad at it lah. damn words wont get into my head.
i predict that i am most likely going to poly-70%-80% sure.

she looks at me and my world stopd
i have got to let her know, before she has to go.
and i hope she does not confront me.
cause i might never find the words i've got in mind

and i dont konw
no, i dont know what to say when im around you
and i , i dont know just what to do
you must know the way i feel by the way im acting
yeah you know, im so crazy,
im so crazy for you.

she tries to catch me, i wont stop
she grabs me vy the hand, i knew she'd understand.
she kisses me and my heart stopd, she asks me if i'll dance
and i said i'd love the chance

she tells me that i am the one that she's been looking for
i only hope that it is true
and if i tell her that her image never leaves my mind
will she say she loves me too?

Labels: he said you had another guy.

I think I could like you, I already do.
Feelings can grow, but they can go away too.
You're taking my hand, looking into my eyes.
Don't be in a rush to get me tonight.
I feel something happening; could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby, you gotta satisfy my heart.

sportday is just another boring, SUPER HOT, tiring day. just wasting my time. wth. damn freaking hot and damn freaking boring. anad the stupid competitors just walk away after the run. why cant they just saty at their lane. i kana scolded just because i lost the 1st runner.wth. and i hate to wear the stupid pl celebrate t shirt. dry fit. yuck. and i feel so damn wet inside lah. eww.

then after sportsday. had meeting. from 2 to 5 plus. and im the treasurer. omg. BIG RESPONSIBLITY!. money money money!. haha. before that, went to someone house and eat and play pool. damn cool right? her house have the pool table lah. when im rich, i'll buy a pool table too!:) hehe. and thanks to jamie chan, im actually improving my chinese. thanks jamie chan.:)

ohya and my job for the sportsday thingy was damn slack lah. wth. i can actually participate in the relay. stupid people. damn angry with them. and i like the shirt!. omg!. should have signed up for the sportsday. and all i did for sportsday was soaking my shirt wet. eww. damn disgusting and smelly. ohwell. im uesd to it. im a netball player man.haha.:)

and time for me to study again. haiz. can you hear my mum screaming?i guess not.haha:)

Bring me some flowers,
Conversation for hours,
to see if we really connect,
and baby, if we do,
I'll be giving all my love to you!

Labels: she's got me tied up in her eyes

every morning, i wake up just the same.
another victim, of ordinary fame
i dont see myself, as invincible
it's not, true at all

im just you average, ordinary,everyday superhero.
trying to save the world but never really sure
im just you average, ordinary, everyday superhero
nothing more than that, that's all i really am

just a day job, that someone's got to do
it's kind fo hard, when everyone looks up to you
try to make it look easy, gonna make it look good
like anybody would

im just you average, ordinary,everyday superhero
trying to save the world but never really sure
im just you average, ordinary, everyday superhero
nothing more than that, that's all i really am

im just like everybody else
after all the height, it's all to you
i keep my game face, im so real

im just you average.. ordinary.. everyday superhero
im just trying to save the world
average.. ordinary.. everyday superhero

i try to hide my, true identity
and no one knows it's only me

im just you average, ordinary, everyday superhero
trying to save the world but never really sure
im just your average, ordinary,everyday superhero.
nothing nore than that, that's all i really am

Labels: everyday superhero

the moron diot!. you know who you are.haha:) so crap.hehe.

this is just a half life.

training.- wasnt so bad. at least we didnt run 2.4 or i'll just die!. thank God i didnt run 2.4 for napfa. but.. next week i'll just die. 2.4 during pe and after school- 5 items. omg. thank God there's not training on that day. or i might as well die. then when i saw the sportsday board, my name wasnt at the 4x100 relay. wth. then my name was at the logistics. wth!. they just change if they feel like it. ath. go and die lah. i want to run and WIN that trophy!. and being a helper can actually kill me. my jod is to go back to school at 6:15 to collect the logistic things.wth! 6:15 lah. and they didnt even tell me that im helping out. just change it like that. IM NOT INFORMED. you cant do this to me. i want to WIN that trophy!. i always wanted a trophy for running. and every year i dont get a chance to compete. and this is the only year that i get to compete. and they just take me out? how can they do this.! ahh. i seriously feel like killing the people who took me out!. haiz.

nvm. whats done is done. cant do anything. stupid person!. and guess what!. my sis lend me her crumpler!. and she said that she lend it to me for my birthday present. wth!. so lame lah. and she took my teddy bear, making it her "child". omg she's like crazy lah. you should see the video in my phone. act like some retarded person. haha. just like a 3 year old but she' already 23.haha. and she didnt take care of it lah. the fur was damn smooth when i had it. now it's like curled up. so messy and rough. not nice to hug anymore. then next time when she have a real child, she'll give the bear to her child. omg. then all the saliva will be on the poor bear. omg!. my bear!

anw, it's 9 plus now. and i think that im gonna die soon. damn tired slept at 12 ytd night. and i slept during english class. and almost at e maths class. wth. stupid kmc. so boring. and she doesnt know how to teach lah. she's just reading from teh notes that she gave us. WHAT! WE DONT KNOW HOW TO READ? might as well give us the notes and SHUTUP!. dont even need to listen lah. stupid teacher dont know how to teach. i prefer my sec2 teacher and i've forgotton her name. and i love ms liang a lot!. she's so cute!. i love her teaching lah. haha. love her love her love her.:)

and the sec 1 induction camp will be on this friday and saturday. hope that i'll get trina or tracy or sophia. they're so damn cute lah. omg.haha. cant wait to see whose in my group. haha. and i hope that it'll be fun. or else im just gonna die. hehe. anw. time for me to do my homework and stuff. haha.

nites*(",)*

everytime i see your face.
everytime you look my way.
it's like it all falls into place.
everything feels right.
everytime i hear your name
everytime i feel the same
its like it all falls into place
everything, everything feels right.

Labels: everything feels right.

when she smiles, i melt inside.

it's been a million years since i saw her online. im really glad that i met her. i admire her so much. all my troubles seem to be gone when i think of her.

and tml! what the hell am i gonna do? haha. study duh!. and my mum kept saying that im a student and my responsibility is to study. i have no life. and im not allowed to go out and watch movies and other things. seriously no life. and im suppose to go straight home everyday after school. seriously, seriously no life. well, too bad lah. im a student. what the hell can i do lah. other than to study? no fun, no life.

baby when you're gone, i realise im in love.

Labels: wondering what to do.

how does it feel to be different from me?

just came back from my ahma's house. had FREE dinner ytd. and today. now i feel so what lah. get FREE food.haha.then today my church is having some dinner which i did not go. anw, i dont feel like im part of my church. they dont know me, i dont know them. i hardly know anyone. just feel so extra. okay.

and guess what!. i manage to play [you and me]. omg. im so damn freakin happy lah. haha. and it just took me one day. no lah. where got so fast. haha. and i still promise gloria that i'll play the guitar for her. yeah? haha.

and today i woke up in the afternoon. omg.haha. im such a pig lah. but when school starts on monday again, i cant wake up that late anymore. haiz. and im still in a holiday mood. omg. and this is term two already.

woah. this shows that time passes really fast. gotta study. and i miss being a sec1. (can see her)
and i seriously miss all the fun i had in sec1. but i prefer sec2. love all my teachers. but not my class. hmm not really. sec2 was damn slack. seriously. but i still manage to pass yeah?haha. but now im sec3. got a lot of pressure. especially when you're a peer lite. haha. and the only reason i join peerlite was for the mega camp.haha. i know-it's stupid. i seriously dont wanna get involve in any peer lite thing anymore. but it's actually quite fun. except there's a lot of pressure-especially w kok. she'll just keep looking at you. like she's trying to force an answer out of you. so scary. i hate it when she stares.but she's quite nice and scary at the same time.haha. so if any of you wanna be a peerlite, think twice.haha.

i miss sec1and sec2. i miss that holding school. two years of memories there. i miss them.
cant believe that i actuallu miss that school. although it's quite small. and the pe store was so much nearer to the netball court. now it's like at pluto. so far!. stupid school. dont know how to design properly. cant you put the netball court at the assembly area. whoever design this school is gonna die.

maybe she'd stay if she only knew.

Labels: it's beyond my control

do you remember
that cold day in december
leaving everything you knew behind?

i will never know how it feels to stand beside and take you hand
when i need some direction.
and i will never know what it's like to see you smiling at me
or know you'd be proud of me.

you'll never know what i've been through.

Labels: not from you

lost in a love so real, and so sincere
and you'll wipe away other's tears
your face lights up whenever he appears

i wish you'd look at me that way
your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling me more that any words could say
but you dont even know im alive
baby, to you all i am is the invisible man
oh, you dont see me baby

i see you all the time baby
huh, the way you look at him
i wish it was me, sweethear
boy, i wish it was me
but i guess...

wishing and praying. but nothing comes true. it's all a nightmare. all just a nightmare. wake me up. dont wanna live this life no more. it just sucks so much. let me go. please let me go. you dont deserve this. cause you've been hurt too much. far too much. i dont deserve you. i deserve nothing from you. nothing at all. cause all i've been doing to you is hurt. im sorry. you deserve better.

Labels: let me go.

im just wasting my fucking time with you. that's how i feel damn it.

love
i see forever in your eyes
i can see heaven in your smile
and when i hold you close
i dont wanna let go
because deep in my soul i know
girl
that you are the only light i see
your love means everything to me
i konw that we will never part
'cause you'll a;ways be near
here in my heart

if sun should refuse to rise
and the moon doesnt hang in the night
that tides wont change
seasons rearrange
when the world is through
i will still love you

girl
you're like an angel from above
sent here to shower me with your love
hold me beneathe you wings
tell me all of those things
all the hope and the dreams we can share
'cause i'll be you shelter from the storm
i'll be the fire that keeps you warm
i'll be your light in the dark
'cause you'll always be here in my heart

if the sun should refuse to rise
and the moon doesnt hang in the night
the tides wont change
seasons rearrange
when the world is through
i will still love you

if anything could last forever
it's what i feel for you
you touch my heart in ways
that words could never say
that's why i'll always love you.

if the sun should refuse to rise
and the moon doesnt hange in the night
the tides wont change
seasons rearrange
when the worls is through
i will still love you

i will still love you.

she's treating you so nice. im not the one for you. she is.

Labels: still

one song. just one song.

omg! she wrote me a testi.haha. i know that im being a moron. but im like seriously damn happy lah. haha. love her love her love her. haha. i cant believe it. hehe. :)

just now i was watching snow white. i know it's a bit old. but it's nice. but i LOVE beauty and the beast more. so damn sweet lah. i wanna watch it again, although i just watched it. no wonder my godbro loves beauty and the beast. my sis is the beauty and he's the beast. haha.no lah. he's so good looking. and my sister so pretty.haha such a great pair. haha. i like 2d musical cartoons. not like now. they dont sing in the shows now. only have background music.

and i feel like a pig. have been watching tv since morning. nth to do. dont wanna study. lucky my mum playing mahjiong.or else i must sit infront of her and study. but tml... haiz. obviously have to study the whole day. and when i woke up today, i found lots of blueback in me. thanks to ytd's trainings. did i mention that it was a killer. oh i did. and i like to repeat. TRAINING WAS A KILLER. ohkay. and it was the first training that i seriously thought of quitting and giving up. maybe it's my flu that made me thought of that. i just felt so tired and sick.

anw, today has been a boring day. and i cant go online cause this com donesnt have msn. haiz. hten later i have to go to my mum's student's house to celebrate her birthday. and it's ester wong's house. omg damn weird lah. and we're just going there to eat. omg. damn embarrassing. haha. but too bad lah. or else i wont have food.haha.

why cant you just believe me when i said that im talking to her as a friend. i dont like her. sometimes i feel that we shouldnt even be.. i think it's pointless. i know that you're angry with me now. but seriously i dont know what to do. sometimes i think that you made use of lh. she msg me to tell me to reply you or call you. wth!. im sorry. im just so damn fucking pissed off. okay.


leave me alone.
get out of my face.
im tired of love
feeling so misplaced
time for you to go
'cause i know im better off on my own, oh
leave me alone.

today's training was SERIOULY a killer. can die lah. no energy after running 2.4km. thanks to my flu and cause i didnt eat my lunch. after running 2.4km, my throat SERIOUSLY dry. desparate for water. omg. then did sprints, and physical. omg. circuit was the worst. 10 STATIONS!. can you believe it? it's killing me slowly. and 3 mins for each station. no break in between. only time to move from stations and stations. then FINALLY!. we did court craft. the same thing again. i think being a cap for just one week is enough. dont wanna get scolded lah. anw, who likes getting scolded. anw, i thank God that it's good friday tml. cause there's no school tml. can sleep like a pig tonight. yeah. but too bad, i've got homework to do.

and im just so tired now that im gonna sleep now.haha. shall continue writing tml. goodnites to those out there. loves.

I lie awake at night
see things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
you know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
that you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
make me stay right beside you

I used to write your name
and put it in a frame
And sometimes I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
and touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

I'm gonna be here for you baby
I'll be a man of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I wanna sleep with you forever
And I wanna die in your arms
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

I wanna honor your mother
I wanna learn from your pa
I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw
I wanna stand out in a crowd for you
A man among men
I wanna make your world better than it's ever been

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way

I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now
And I'm gonna make you this promise
If there's life after this
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us
I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll win your trust making memories of us

she's just so perfect in my eyes. and i agree with everyone who says she's perfect or almost perfect. cause she is. she just made my day. was damn depressed but thanks to her, im not now. everytime i think of her, it just made me smile. people would think im crazy smiling at myself, but i wouldnt care. she' the one who made me smile. all the memories. although it's been such a long time, i'll still want to keep those memories. cause it's too precious. i'd give up everything for her.

today. nth much.again. well. i know that i've been very emo for the past few days. wrote crap on my blog. cause i was just damn sad. i cant tell my family. you should know why. anw, they dont see my sad when im home. maybe all my unhappiness starts in school. maybe that's why im starting to go home early again. and somehow studying makes me forget everything. and somehow i like studying now. well that's a good thing. cause i gotta study and PULL my results. yeah?. and i've learn to like studying. dont look at it as if you have to do it cause your parents told you so. take it as if you're learning something new and you're increasing you knowledge. haha. when you take the exams or tests, you'll know how to do and you'll be happy cause you know that you've got at least 80% of it right. got that from my godbro. so think positive then you'll do the task well. yeah?

and im suppose to study now. opps!. haha. shh dont tell my mum.haha. nah. i think she knows lah. she's just giving me a break now. BUT. at 2030hours. im gonna study. i hate to study at night. so tired and i wanna sleep. haha. yeah. im still sick. my nose was a dripping tap a few days ago. now it's block. so difficult to breathe. im suffocating. haha. it's so irritaing to use my mouth to breathe lah. btw, did you know that when you use you mouth to breathe, there'll be a lot of dust and germs going into your body, i think. (dont believe me. cause im not sure if this is true.haha.) therefore, we use our nose to breathe- why? cause our nose has nose hair to prevent dust and germs from entering our body.haha.

i wanna die in your arms.

walking down this road call life.
thinking how my world has change.

today.. nth much.. received a choc bar from jocleen. thanks:) er. i was damn freaking tired and seriously had no energy for the whole day. feel damn sick. but still have to run the stupid morning jog. WHOSE IDEA WAS IT ANW!. oh well. then had a meeting after school. now im a treasurer for the sec1 i discover camp. wth!. damn scared that i'll lose all the money. such a huge responsibility. and some mates had umpiring course today. wanted to sign up for it, but too bad. i've got no time. then ytd had training. the juniors lost. haiz. training was alright. did the same thing. but the court work was quite tiring. now i think im having a fever. hoping not to go to school tml. anw, i dont have the mood. and i think im getting my sexy voice back again.

im just having a nightmare.
all these things arent real.
whatever i felt arent real.
whatever i said arent real.
nothing is real in this dream.
im just having a nightmare.

i dont understand you. and i never will. why are you doing all these things for me? are they worth it? cause i dont think so. stop everything. stop being nice to me. im not worth it. let me be.
i just hope that you'll stop reading my blog.

it just gonna end.

today-training. well, i was dying. i was sick and tired. stupid flu. and quite fun lah. did court work. and i cant believe that qy's not training for this month. not fair lah. she gets to skip napfa. i want too!. anw, last to leave school, as in among the netballers. damn tired. run here and there to find somethings. haiz. ans it's damn difficult to breathe when i have flu.

i just wanna end it all.
i just cant take it no more.
i just wanna say "im sorry" to you.
but it wont heal your broken heart.
but i just dont know what else to do.
im sorry.
im really am.

it's all just a dream. tml i'll wake up, and everything will be different.

just didnt know what to say.
just didnt know how to say.
just dont wanna hurt you again.
just dont have the guts.
im a coward.
face it man.
im a f*ucking coward.
i dont deserve anything from you.
im a f*ucking bitch.
im a fool.
im an idiot.
how can i face you again?
im filled with guilt.
i dont wanna live this life anymore.
it seems useless to me.
what can i do to make you forgive me.
nothing can heal a broken heart.
im just so sorry.
you should have known the truth first.
im sorry.