this week passed very slowly. why? cause i kept thinking of something. something so important. and yet, i dont know what to do about it. well, all i could hope for is for your forgiveness.
i was sick on thursday. cause of some stupid food poisoning. told my mum about it. she said it's because that i cough until my stomach pain. so dont have to see a doctor. when my stomach hurts, i dont know if im hungry or isit pain. during recess, i ate some food. then suddenly my stomach start hurting. on the day when we had a game, i also had a stomache duing recess. i still played in the game. although it hurts. anw, we won. 34 to 10. against kc. katong convent. gonna announce during assembly. must cheer loudly. yeah cause the netballers had won. hope that we'll make it to the second round. come on. we must have faith. and we also have to train harder. no fooling around anymore.
and my sec1 friend told me that most of the sec1s this year wanna join netball cause they knew that the school is gonna cancel netball in 2 years time if we dont win anything. how did they know. im also very curious.
now im starting to hate the school more and more. i think that the school sucks. the stupid system. and so what if netball didnt win anything. doesnt mean that you can cancel the game that we've come to love. if you cancel netball cause we didnt win anything, might as well cancel all the other ccas in the future if they didnt win anything. fucking school. is winning so important? and that stupid system. make us carry our school bags everywhere. did you know that many ppl are shrinking? i know i am. and did they watch the news. it's said that more younger ppl are getting back pain. cant you spare a thought for us? and the teachers. why do they need a staff room when they have a homeroom. dont have enough space?? and some of us have like 5-6 subjects a day. do you know that's a lot of books to bring.which may cause us to have back pain. at least give us a locker. then we dont have to carry so many things everyday. i used to look forward to school. but now. i rather stay at home and bore myself to death than to go to school and carry so many damn books. and one book isnt light. it's heavy. DAMN HEAVY! you teachers can leave your stuff in the staff rooms. then we have to carry everything back home and back to school again. some of us dont leave very near if you know. i think someone have to faint before they can change the system to the old one. and the canteen. dont have enough space. dont have enough chairs. why? cause of the bags. the bags occupy the space. and now do you realise that a lot of ppl aren't using the basketball court. why? no mood. because we have to carry the stupid bag around. and sometimes the first period is at the first level and the next period is at the fourth level. do you know how tiring it is to climb up the stairs. and the teachers blame us for going to class late. they said that we have 5 mins to move but sometimes the teachers release us late and you expect us to run to the next class. w our heavy bags? i rather get scolded than run. and they use this system because they say so that the teachers can start the lesson on time. my shit lah. the teachers still come late for the lesson. when the teachers come late, it's alright. but when the students come late for lesson, we get scolded. i hate this school and the fucking system. i seriously hope it fail. hope that it'll change back by the end of this term. or earlier. i cant take it anymore.