lately, something here dont feel right. this is just a half-life.

i know that you wont read my blog. or maybe not? but i'll write it here. or should i? see my mood first lah.

have been thinking a lot. but dont know what the hell im thinking. so many things in my head. too confused. cant really concentrate in class. what am i doing? is this right? or is this wrong? i dont wanna hurt another anymore. i've done too much hurting. and now i have to stop it. but how? what to do?

today has been a looooonnnng day. time seems to pass very slowly, huh? of course!. the subjects today are sort of boring. a maths, geog, lit, ss.. what else? i forgot. nvm. haha.
anw, after school went to eat lunch w MY BESTFRIEND at hlm. er.. then we saw pra and charmine. haha. i've just realised that pra's nickname is "neetu".haha. wth lah. dont fit her. i think "PRA" sounds nicer. dont cha think so? haha. then after that went home to get my stupid letter signed and went back to school again. wth. waste my time. but i also had to do the class deco. haiz. STUPID LI SHAN!. paint my shoe gold. i'll make you wash it for me. then im suppose to go home with jamie chan. but i forgotton that i was holding pearlyn's things and i had to put the pail back at 1st level. and i was at the 2nd level at that time. so i had to walk aalllllllllll the way to the 4th level, took the pail and went down again. so damn tired. and the pail is quite heavy. thankGod that i dont have to carry it up to the 4th level.haha. then went to the canteen and called pea.

me: hello? pearlyn?
pea: who are you?( i heard it as "where are you?")
me: in the canteen.
pea: who are you?( then i heard the same thing)
me: in the canteen.
pea: who are you?(then realised that she said who are you)

obviously i said " claris " DUH!
omg! i think i have hearing problems or her prounciation is wrong. haha. so now im home, blogging again.

maybe i shouldnt have asked that question in the first place. then i wouldnt know. but now i do. so i'll pretend not to know. but i just cant AHH! it freaks me out.

is there really no escape? no escape from time of any kind?