i've made up my mind
there is no turning back
she's been good to me
and she deserves better then that
it's the hardest thing i' ll ever have to do.
to look you in the eye
and tell you i dont love you
it's the hardest thing i'll ever have to lie
to show no emotion when you start to cry
i cant let you see what you mean to me
when my hands are tied and my heart's not free
we're not meant to be
it's the harest thing i'll ever have to do
to turn around and walk away,
pretending i dont love you.

i wanna decide cause it's worth deciding
i love playing the guitar. although i only know how to play two songs, a few starting of some songs. not bad huh? haha. and i wanna learn more. anw, seriously dont feel like going to school tml. i've got no mood. haiz. anw, i feel sick too. shouldnt have eaten the chips. it feels so uncomfortable.

take so much out of me to pretend .

life? what is it for? why are we here? i've been told that we're here for a purpose. God made us for a purpose. but what am i here for? i dont even know. how i wish that i could just have the answer right infront of me. it'd be so much easier.why does everything have to be so complicated.? i even wonder why God gave us a life. what are some of us here for? sometimes i feel that some of us has no purpose here. seriously. and i have this question that my sister cant even answer. i seriously wonder why God made us when he knew that we're going to betray him. he's misterious.
but whatever the situation is, we shoud believe in him. we should put our trust in him. :D
and sometimes i wonder- why does he put certain people in our lives? oh well, i'll never know. im just grateful that he did. cause they are just so important to me. i love them.<3

cant you see im breaking down.