the worst thing happened today. especially after school. the GREATEST shock of my life. it shouldnt have happen. why didnt i pull her back?. why didnt i see it coming?. scared the shit out of me. shall not elaborate. today's napfa was damn boring. the boring-est shit of my life. netballers was suppose to take charge of the napfa. why did you take it away from us? i hate this shit school. fucking school with fucking things. fuck the fucking school lah. used to love this school so much. but now it sucks. thanks to the fucking principle. i dont even feel like im home when i enter the school. when im damn angry or damn depressed, i used to think of coming to this school. (holding school) now i dont even look forward to this fucking school. and i run 2.4 today. omg. the blister sucks lah.

im sorry. shouldnt have went there in the first place. it was a terrible mistake. now i dont even wanna be there to look at you anymore. and i've been thinking real hard. and i've come to my conclusion.

fucking bitch! what the hell do you want lah?! i cant take your shit anymore.

now all i want is to think about her. the sight of her just makes me smile.
her smile is like heaven.
a face that you couldnt get your eyes off.
with a voice so gentle.
i just need to get to know her more.
and now i've realised that i need to see her again.
i need to see her again.
she's perfect.
perfect for almost anyone.
whoever she fall in loves with,
that person is damn lucky to have a girl like her.
i want to have her for myself
but will she be happy?
will she love me back?
actually it doesnt matter who she is really with.
i just want her to be happy.
it'll just hurt me to you sad.

actually, by right, everything's my fault. maybe i shouldnt have come to this school at all. all of you are better off without me. im sorry.

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