Friday, May 25, 2007,
everything was just a lie.firstly, i just wanna thank those who made my day today and yesterday. although i may look sad, but i really am happy. im happy that i met you guys. im happy that i joined netball (though there are many things that made me upset, you get what i mean??) im grateful that i have friends like you. i thank God for you! and..i love da group a lot, with all my heart.they are the rockers of my life. love them, love them, love them. and then, everything seems to be affecting my mood. ytd was wrong. shouldnt have happened. really affected my mood badly. and i guess my hopes was too high. should have known. okay then, training was alright. cs made us run 2.4km after we did our warm up. omg! it's like hell lah. and i didnt eat. cause of some "meeting". i sent the msg to everyone lah. i bet linette's angry? see lah. and my mum was angry that i went for this "meeting". not your(da group) fault lah. just that my mum was super angry with me ytd. oh well, i made her feel that way. yup, so that explains my mood. and i gotta buck up with my studies. no going out more than 3 times a week, i guess and back by 6/7pm. i feel no freedom. but i gotta do it. if i dont perfrom well in term 3, i can say bye bye to peerlite. and the next might be netball. no netball, no life for me. i might as well quit school. then i'll have all the time to study!and cs compared the c'div with her primary school. wth. i hate it when people compare. it's like damn irritating lah. if you're not happy then you can leave. and it's already half a year. the sec1s cant get their basics right. i dont understand why you cant be more patient, or maybe they're just afraid of you? haiya. anw, we're gonna choose the cap and vice cap and sec3 rap for next year. all i can say is"let's just pray." time passes quickly. i cant catch it. once it's gone, it's never coming back. i didnt treasure the time i have. i just let it pass by. i didnt really care. but now i just need it so much. i need it. but what's the point now? i just gotta use the time i have left. no point looking back, what i should have done, or what i shouldnt have. it's useless. especially when it only makes you depressed. i needa use time wisely now. and i gotta study harder if i wanna stay in netball and peerlite. i know that i say it many times that i need to study and my results are bad when i come back. my mum really knock some sence in me.haiz.the words that saved in my heart, i can no longer hold inside.Labels: so much for my happy ending.
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