your eyes still glow, how i love your smile.

argh!. damn it!. stupid com. okay. before this i typed a super long post. and now it's gone! argh.

and everything that you thought was fine has turn this back into more than time.

okay. in the previous post that was gone, i said that my com is finally fixed. but i guess it's not totally fixed yet. argh!!!!.. damn it, you. hmph!

okay. im damn angry now. argh!!. okay.. but thank god im going out tml. okay. or else im gonna vent my anger on the com and it'll be spoilt again.. okay.. it was spoilt before not because i vent my anger on it, okay. i dont know how the hell it was spoilt lah.. i rmb i came back from obs and i could use the com and i was damn angry.!! ahh!!!.

alrights alrights. now im trying too calm down.. whoo! alrights.
anw, i bought something. and when i put the pieces tgh, it didnt look like what the picture had shown. cheat my money. just like the potato chips. you think there's a lot of chips in it. but when you open it, there's only half of the packet. see!. that's how they cheat our money. so next time, you might wanna shake it first. for those that cant be shaked, too bad lo.. haha(:

alrights. anw, game tml. okay. i have no comment about it. usually i'll be damn scared. maybe i'll feel scared later.. when im dreaming or something. haha.(: yepyep. anw. today didnt really do any homework. well, i thought that i could finish my lit today and i found out that i did the wrong question!. argh!. have to do again. then i also dont understand their very chem lauguage. thank god it's not in chinese. i might as well fail everything. heh! (: okay. and half way through my geog hw. and i feel that im going to do a really great job!. anw, im proud of my first page!(:

and im hoping to see the day when you will come back to me.

we look eye to eye.

ykiwymtee

Labels: so happy together.

maureen- haha.. i like..
jas- you die.. anw, you've alr given me my money.. wahaha..
jocleen- i blame you. haha.
zenia- i was avoiding you. im afraid to get blind.
pea- yuck.. who wanna be jealous of you lah.. gross.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.
-an email i received.

thinking back.. i remember how selfish i was and still am. i just wanna do things that satisfy my own needs and not others. i just want myself to be happy, not thinking about others. i dont even wanna share. and when others ask, i'll think twice about it first. argh. im still selfish. ):

alrights.. i went shopping ytd!. yaye!. mummy bought me a jeans and a shirt. now i have 2 jeans. yaye!. and i also bought a neckless and a new hp cover. now it looks brand new! hooray!. now pea wont say anything about my hp cover. wahaha!. anw, guess who i saw. i saw ms kok!.[ in the toilet. ] omg!. i was damn scared lah. so i quickly ran out. haha. and when i went to bugis street, i saw eliz sister. dont know which one. haha. all look the same to me. haha.

okayokay.. and currently, im having stomache. sucks, yeah?. argh. i hate it whenever my stomach says it needs to pang sia. i hate it when i need to shit when im watching a tv show. who knows you can shit for half an hour. haha! i blame the food i ate in camp. cause a lot of people are also having stomache. haha!.

at least im able to get a break from netball for tml.. that's great!. anw, night game on thurs. anw, i slept damn long today. wont be sleeping any soon now. okay.. i shall do lit today. and im happy cause i did 2 questions on lit ytd and i've finished my first page of geog. dont laugh. it's a great acomplishment hor!. haha.

hey baby. i miss you. wish that you know. but im happy with the way things are now. (:

okay. i really need time on my own. but i'll end up doing homework. haha. okay.. maybe my 'me' time is sleeping lah.. haha..(:

i'll be welcoming you back.

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pea-haha.. compare to yours.. you are nothing.. haha..
jocleen- yeah.. had fun too.. and remember not to shit on the road whenever you like.. (:

you took my hand and showed me how.

alright. currently, i am feeling damn freaking hot. what's up with the weather?!it's dang freaking hot!. argh.. must be me.. oh well, i cant help being hot lah.. haha..

anw, im still tired. didnt get enough rest i guess. and it's going to be monday soon. which means- training again. waahhh!. siao!. alrights. so tml, im going rest and try to sleep the whole day!(: but obviously i cant. argh heck. so i guess, i shall just go study or something.

and i wanna go watch many movies. well, the best is that my dad will just buy all of them. heh (: yepyep.. and i really needa buy a new book for next year. thank god i've saved enough money, but now wo bu she de spend. hownowbrowncow? ): argh..

anw, FINALLY!. i've been waiting long for you. and somehow i feel that i dont regret not giving it to you. but i just miss you so. and you.

yeah.im happy!.(:

even the best fall down sometimes.

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pea-shut up moron!.
zenia- no. i wont..
gloria- alrights. have a good rest, babe!.
pea-and i was in camp!. qu si ba!

i love my mates oh so much!.

alrighttyy!!. training camp is over!!. woohoo!!!.. i've been waiting for the last day of training camp lah.. right now.. im having lots of aches here and there. and my blank was always being squashed by gloria. *ouch* alrights. well, i can say that they are out to kill us!. oh well, it's over.. but on the other hand. i bonded quite well with my groupmates. and a lot more with my division. (: anw, during the camp, i watch facing the giants. it was a really great show. i wanna watch it again. it really motivate me to do much better because i konw im capable of much more. and with god all things are possible. whether we win the game or lose the game, we'll always praise the lord. after the show, we reflected. well, i was thinking how much i drifted away from god and i wanna be closer to him. yepyep. anw, i believe that we'll be a much closer team and not leaving anyone behind. and i really learn lots of this camp. like all the moves and others that i can use in my daily life. (: yepyep.. im tired alrights.

anw, because of training camp, i get to see blank. and because of training camp, i get to save money. $ka ching$ but i still owe the netball fund 9 bucks.. ): sad isnt it? but i sold my fbts to jaslynn so i get money! hooray.. thank me hor!.

breathe on me, let me see your face.
forever i will seek you.
cause all you are is all i want, always
draw me close in your arms.
oh god, i wanna be with you.
i wanna be with you.

Labels: baby., it's over

raindrops are falling..

i figured that you're overseas now. (:

right. everytime when i see the new busstop, it just makes me wanna bash the person. make use. and then kana retired. if you just see, you'll know what we're going through. but on the bright side, it really makes me realise that i should spent money wisely. it doesnt come from trees. and i've learnt to be more independent. i used to have someone to clean up my mess for me. but now, i clean up my own mess.. well, most of it.
so, should i thank you?

church today was alright. well, it's been a long time since i went to church. seriously a long time. (: well, i was tired. very tired. but service was good. (: learnt much.

there's never a right time to say goodbye.

Labels: and i was hoping it would be you.

zenia- when i see you.. 100 years later.. oh.. by then, im alr dead. opps!. so are you.. so no point. haha!.
niki- i choose one leh. of course nice lah..(:
pea- i wasnt stoning.. i was READING!. and no one tears fries. it's just plain dumb.. oh i forgot.. you are dumb.. haha!.
zhixian- haha.. yours and jiale also.. lol..(:
dajie- ya.. no rule says i cant!(:
maureen- ya.. what stupid person tears her fries? maybe she's looking for her pea-family in the fries.. haha
zhixian- thanks, you too!. (:
anonymous- im famous.

"you make your own history"
-timeline, the movie

game on tues- won. tired as hell.
sec4farewell- GREAT! fun. tired. legs are dying. hot. cold. tired. broke. wet. smelly. disgusting. gross. bleah. oh well, everything went quite smoothly and everyone is tired. next year it'll be our turn. i like ipods and mp3 players *hint hint* or maybe a big giantic bear. hmm. both will do. haha.(:

alrightty!. im going to church tml.. that's a good thing. anw, it's time to pack my room again. "out with the old and in with the new" haha.. i seriously need to clear the floor. there's hardly any space to walk. but i dont really have the time to do it. next week will be hectic. at least monday im free. tues- training in the morning and game at night. it's just dumb. wed to fri will be the netball camp. woah.. my whole life is just netball. - isnt that exciting? argh.. i feel that i exercise too much. goodluck sec2s and 1s. you're gonna need it. (:

im tired.
goodnites.

Labels: isit so hard to believe?

gloria- (:
pea- moron; the one who tears her fries. haha.. but too bad i cant lend it to you.
zenia- oh? i thought u wanted me to teach u on tues? too bad. u miss e appointment.take a number and try again.ur number is 100. and right now, e number is -100. so u have to wait for 200 turns.. oh well.. happy waiting. (:

who i am hates who i've been.

oh my god,becky. look at her butt. it is so big.
-it's funny to me(:

ytd had training. yep. and i was dying. well, looking forward to game this thursday. but not the trainings. woah. i really thank god that it's gonna be my last year playing netball. enough is enough. (x

alrights.. out today with pea.. haha.. she's a crazy woman who tears her fries.. she keeps staring at me.. [ i know im cute and all, but you dont have to lah.. lol. (: ] oh did i mention that she tears her fries?? oh i did.. haha.. well. im just gonna say it again.. pearlyn tears her fries. haha.. gym with her at dont know which part of orchard. went BK to eat cheap-nice-filling food for lunch. went to hl macs to teach her A MATH! oh and i stepped on my honey stars. haha. ): oh and we accidentally bumped into zhixian and jiale at hlm.. shoulda seen our reaction. we were shocked to see each other.. haha.. GREAT time. (:

and tml, will be having a game at kallang netball centre.. and i've just remembered that weikee has alr left for kunming.. so sad.. now i have to wait for her to come back to go rockclimbing.. ):
alrights. it will be studying for tml morning and game for tml night.(:

oh yes. today, as i was on my way to physio,i saw 2 kids in the bus. [they're not even P1]they were making a lot of noises and they were also singing. a lot of people were staring at them. at that time, i was thinking, dont they feel embarrassed? sometimes i wish that i wouldnt be embarrassed with whatever i do. sometimes i wish that i can be more open. but nothing's gonna change if i dont do anything. argh.. oh this sucks.. again.

alrightty.. guess what? i've found it.. woohoo.. im just so darn happy right now. alrights. i am gonna sleep soon.. (x

argh! oh damn mosquito. stop biting me!

im sorry for the person i've became
im sorry that it took so long for me to change.

Labels: hownowbrowncow?

days are getting tiring. i feel so restless. trainings are becoming meaningless. one word to describe today.. sucks!.

and all these things mean nothing to me
when im with you i've got everything.
i could want and i could need
even god, he would agree
you and i were meant to be
it's easy to see.

Labels: sucked.

somehow, i feel sad now. ):

Labels: i sucked.

zenia- okay.. you dont have to drag the word 'so'..
jasmine- huh? i didnt spend my whole day with you. haha.. and it's not because of you that i enjoyed myself. oh well, the truth hurts.. lol(:

take me to a place where no one can separate us.

oh man.. i've made my wound worse. i went to peel it. now there's a depression on my hand. so disgusting! and if you ask, 'why the hell did you do it!?' well, it's tempting, you know. seeing a brown thing at your hand just makes me wanna peel it. haha!.

you know, i hate it when people forward emails concerning all those ghost stuff. i mean, it's not even real, please. it's just some stupid people who just wanna scare others just for entertainment. this is stupid. i believe there is no ghost in this world. just spirits. i admit that although i dont believe there are ghosts, im still afraid. but i do believe that god will always be with me, protecting me. and have you ever read emails concerning god? some people forward the email for the sake of forwarding. oh come on. if you dont want to, then dont!.
you know, i really agree with the emails that were sent to me..

Why is it so hard to tell the truth but Yet so easy to tell a lie? Why are we so sleepy in church but Right when the sermon is over we suddenly wake up? Why is it so hard to talk about God but yet so easy to talk about nasty stuff? Why is it so boring to look at a Christian magazine, but yet so easy to look at a nasty one? Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e- mail, but yet we forward all of the nasty ones? Why are the churches getting smaller but yet the bars and dance clubs are getting larger?

Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Isn't it funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God). Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing? Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them. Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

alrights. tml will be having training. and meeting and getting the shirts. hooray!(:alrights.. right now, i can say that time pass really fast..):


Jesus said, 'If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my Father.'

and i say thank you.

Labels: prayer is the best gift.

G- yep. miss you. (:

dont bother,really.

well, i can say that i really enjoyed myself today. though i spent all my money.. well, not all.. left 5 cent. lol.. that's damn pathetic. but that's okay. as long as i enjoy myself, im happy. and it's also okay because it's gonna be monday.. which means i'll have money again.. haha!. but im kinda sad lah.. on wed, my ahma gave me $10 and my mummy also gave me $10. spent $5 on food on friday and today, everything's gone.. ): okay.. i really need to control on how much i spend. then next time i can go shopping.. not window shopping or buy small stuff. (:
okay im broke now. ):

alrights. wanted to go church tml, but somehow, i just changed my mind. maybe it's because i feel im not wanted. well, im sorry if you're reading this. but seriously, i think that you dont want me to go.

these days, your words are cold. you ignore me. well, i dont blame you cause i also did the same to you. i should just change lah.

i think im selfish. doing whatever that pleases me and not others. giving excuses to escape. pushing the blame to others. oh sucks!. im selfish, aiights?

oh yes, ytd was supranee's birthday.. so yep. she wont see this lah. so no point typing a long paragraph. oh well, that's fine with me.

well, this blogskin is much better. i like it!.(:

and here again, i see you.

Labels: thankful. am i?

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

Labels: but baby, sometimes you're just sayin' e words.

cant you see im in love with you.
cant you see there's so much i'll do.
you keep my head spinning around
and i cant keep my feet on the ground

having a block nose is one of the worse thing you can get. cause you cant breathe properly!!. argh.. it sucks and damn disgusting, okay?. anw, i have many things to do tml..since i doubt that i can go out tml. i've alr make my day full so i wont be bored.. haha. how smart am i? using time so wisely.. [lol] time is precious hor!. every second counts!. (:

i wanna go rock climbing.. now that i have ka ching!.. i can go.. muahaha.. too bad weikee cant go tml.. sian.. next time bah!..(: and i also wanna play basketball.. but like no one wants to play with me leh..):

anw, cause of the damn flu im having, i cant sleep now. sian arh.. it just annoys me when i can only breathe through one side of my nose.. haha!. okayokay.. i dont care! i want to sleep now..i'll do anything in my power to make me sleep. even if it means chopping off my nose.. i was just kidding about that.. come on, laugh with me! hahaha!. okay enough.. okayokay goodnites.

can you keep up?

Labels: lost a lover.

why does hello feel like goodbye?

take a look at this..


pretty? of course lah.. she's my sister.. dont look like me aye?

duh.. look at this.. any similarities?.. doubt so..

see her boyfriend.. handsome, huh? of course lah.. my god-bro mah.. lol.

okay.. im being lame.. seriously damn sian.. and tired and tml still have to go to school.. wake up early.. and im addicted to the com.. oh that's bad.. lol..

these memories cant replace..

anw, i wanna go rock climbing now.. but i dont have enough $money$.. i shall start saving up.. and i should start studying alr.. and someone's birthday is coming.. haha.. i dont know why im so excited for that person.. lol.

alrights.. i cant wait for next year! hooray! anw, i've gotta get PB season 2 and 3. and i love my sister's room!. er jie! im not gonna give it back to you!. bleah. and i wanna play basketball. okay.. i wanna do a lot of things during the holidays.. haha..

i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone

left remembering what it's like

to have you here with me

i thought you should know, you're not making this easy.

im gonna enjoy my holidays..(:

'There are many difficulties in life. The weak view it as problems to be solved. The strong will view it as a challenge ready to be overcome. Some even looked at it as an opportunity to prove their worth and put their abilites to the test.

So which are u ?

Each step we take in life are bound to have difficulty. Let each step be a challenge, each footstep marking be a memory. Fight the good fight of life, run the good race. Learn to see things in different prospective and you will find life more worth while.'

i got this from my god-bro's blog. i think it's very interesting and inspiring, yepyep. i seriously agree that we should see things differently. and not complaining about life. change our attitude and we'll see a change in the world. that's life. go against life and life will surely win. life always win. it's doesnt give you the things you want. yep. so we just have to view things differently and always look on the positive side.(:

i feel that my god-brother is a very wise and holy man, though he can be playful at times. yep. go read his blog if you want any christian thingy.. there's a post about prayer.. (: [http://bigboysomeday.blogspot.com/]

Labels: more than words..

if you just give me one good reason why
my heart just might let go.
maybe one day i will fall in love again.
but for now, i'll just leave my heart in two..

if i never fall in love again.
if never touch your skin again.
if i never feel this way again.
if i never see another day

Labels: so broken by you.

once upon a time..
claris is tired. claris wants to sleep now. but claris has to wait for zhi xian's reply. claris is super tired. why zhi xian take so long to reply claris's email? claris is really, really tired. claris will kill zhi xian if she doesnt reply by 9pm..
to be continued..

lol..oh my. i think im so funny. but seriously im so tired. then tml also have training in the morning and the day after that i still have training. and i hurt my ankle. that's bad.. today was a killer man. i had stomache and wanted to puke and seriously very tired and sian.. haizz.. okayokay.. look on the bright side.. today.. hmm.. ate with G, jiale and jas. yaye! and guess what. i had free lunch and lunch today was goooooood. yepyep. and i love FP and blank!

continuing...
yaye! zx's finally online. so hurry reply!.. claris wanna go sleep!. hurry! hurry!hurry!..
to be continued..

okay continue from where i've stopped. i love FP and blank!. i thank god for them. (: yepyep.
anw, im happy. superb happy.

coninuing..
yaye! zx has finally replied claris and claris is happy bacause she can go and sleep right after claris tells the supplier that it's okay!. hooray!!..
the end.

goodnites people!

im gonna enjoy my holidays..(:

Labels: im happy

yepyep. and you suck big time!.

alrights.. tml have training.. *oh no!.. *
haiz. alrights. this week, i shall make time for rock climbing!. yaye!. maybe basketball.. hmm..
still have lessons.. hopefully i wont get you-know-who for emath. )x oh heck!. whatever teacher i get, i still have my mummy!. wahahah..

alrights. just came back from shopping!.. well, i didnt really shop for clothes.. but for food!. yaye! have lots of food now.. im gonna grow fat!. bullshit!. how can i allow that!? haha!. anw, today is boring. didnt wake up at 3pm as planned, but at 9am. sianz. so i have super a lot of time doing nothing useful. damnit!. okayoaky.. tml.. im going to study!!.. *wake me up when september ends* haha.. oh i cant wait to start studying next year. it's gonna be mugging all day long. woah!. im so excited!. of course not..

did anyone read the newspaper today?

aiya.. i want a mega camp in the december holidays.. i feel so damn free! argh!. and i want to go with you.. oh this sucks..

im gonna enjoy my holidays!. (:

lie to me
give me something worth living for
tell me a reason worth fighting for
give me anything, anything to keep me breathing

Labels: anything to keep me breathing.

would you stay if i said i want you?.

peerlite training workshop is finally OVER!. but apparently, not my job. ): i still gotta do the attendance list. argh. lazy to do it now. i shall do it tml. heh (: and hopefully the scanner can work.. im so dead if it cant. ): alrights. i think my group for the peerlite is damn good, weird, funny.. blahblahblah.. haha.. though we didnt win, it's alright. as long as we have learnt sth from the workshop and had fun. okay, seriously, today is the most fun among the 4 days. (: alrights. and seriously, i think my job as admin is kinda easy. thanks to my group of people.. yaye!(: anw, tml i shall wake up at.. hmm.. 3pm? lol. i damn tired can. but im still kinda high. so cant really sleep. haha. alrights. and for the 4 days we've been sleeping late.. wah.. and the worse was that we had extra lessons on the first 3 days of the peerlite workshop can?!. can just die if the teacher is boring. but thank god they arent. yaye!.

anw, during peerlite, ms ting still remember what my mum said. woah. i thought she would have forgotton alr. haha.. anw, what she said actually woke me. so.. i improved in my eoy exams!. otherwise, who knows.. *ahem* haha..

alrights. next year will be a superb busy year.. with studies, meeting up with the sec3 peerlites 08, trainings. maybe more meetings? hmm..
but with the help of the loved one, i believe i can make it through next year. and all she has to do is to come to school and appear infront of me.. lol.. (: i think she's so funny, cute.. blahblahblah.. shall not say anymore.. lol.. [thanks a lot]

alrightsalrights.. claris.. you are going to sleep now and wake up in the late afternoon tml.. lol.. byebye.. have a good nite rest and enjoy the rest of your holidays.. (:[enjoy it while you can.]

what would you say, if i asked you not to go.
to forget everything, forget everyone and start over with me.
would you take my hand and never let me go?
promise me, you'll never let me go.

FP<3

Labels: promises me this..

omg! talking to the loved one now. i think she's damn funny.(: so interesting. everytime i see her or talk to her, im all smiles (: yaye!.
loveher loveher loveher.

alrights.. i think sg shows are boring.. lol. i prefer watching disneychannel. dont laugh, kay. im still young and there's not wrong in watching disney channel. hmph!.[lol]

person A didnt come today again. i think she pon lo.. everytime give excuse.. hack arh! haha.. anw, i have A MATH today.. omg!. what the hell did i learn ytd? i must keep refering to my notes.. argh! need more practice. yepyep. and i was in total blank today. didnt really understand what mrs pang was talking about.. but she is a much better teacher than kmc. english was good. didnt expect that i'll learn something from ms poon. cause i feel that i never learn anything from all my english teachers.. well, that shows if i pay more attention to the teacher and if the teacher is very efficient, i can learn a lot. HAHA!. that's not bullshit now, isit?..err.... [haha] and we are given homework. yaye!. i so dont konw how to do and i cant wait to get it done and over with. this is call irony. [i think i use it correctly. haha]

alrights. peerlite today was gooooooood. well, better than the first day. some of them are more open now.. yepyep. alrights. and they are improving. good job!. [though i know that they're not gonna read this, i still wanna say it (: ] alrights. tml will be the last day of peerlite. so not ready for the performance. tml is gonna be a looooooong day. sianz. alrights. at least im not wasting my time doing sth that waste my life away. lol. and after tml. im gonna sleep my life away. haha. of course not. that will be bullshit. (:

and now.. GHOST WHISPERER!. i think it's damn nice please. haha.. just that i didnt really get the chance to watch it. go watch it if you have the chance. it's damn nice..

i love FP!.

Labels: and this is what i get..

FPfpFPfpFPfpFPfpFP!

alrights. day 2 of camp alr. well, it's a so-called camp. lol. at least it's better than ytd's one. [ i was freaking out!.] anw, today was suppose to have training. but have peerlite stuff. oh well.. heh!.
tml will be another day of the camp.

lie to me.

anw, lessons today are great. except ss. i didnt understand what she was saying. besides, they were rushing. yepyep. and math today was great. superb!. im proud of myself that i've learnt many things! and chem.. oh it was the best.. hahahah!. you should know what.. heheh!.

alrights. tml have english. and im so dead. and im so not looking forward to next year.
woah..time past real quick!. ):

okay. for this holiday. im gonna study real hard and be organsied and stop wasting my time watching tv. [it kills my brain cells. haha.] and stop using the com and study real hard and.. argh.. dont wanna say any more. haha.(: alrights.

ohohoh.. someone's birthday is coming.. hehe!. (: i cant wait!.

life is a high way.

Labels: tell me something so typical