it's heartbreaking knowing what i know. but knowing it at the last minute would hurt even more. and many questions keep appearing in my head. questioning myself why. fears. fearing some things wouldnt work out. i guess all i could do now is to trust in THE ONE. trusting that He will help me through. trusting in the Father. yet, i find it so difficult. and now, everything doesnt seems right. Lord, please help me.