Right now, I dont feel at peace. Im uncomfortable in many ways that can't be described and some, I would rather not mention least it gives me any emotional unrest. That's the last thing I would want especially Im not really emotionally stable. As you know, there's many troubled things going on my mind. Some still haunting me. Even in my dreams. It was so bad to the point I cried that night and not wanting to sleep for I fear, even though I was so tired.

But one thing i did do. I cried out to God. I prayed to Him. Asking Him to give me peace. That night, I didnt had that dream, which I had for 5 consecutive nights. To me, it was nightmare. It was messing up my mind, my thoughts.

Even though all these are happening to me, I know God has planned something else greater for me. I used to ask God, why me? Why is all these happening to me now and why now? But I've learnt that I need to let go of the need to know why. I need to put my trust in Him completely. That is one thing I've always find difficult to do. But Blessed be the Lord for I am learning to put my trust in Him.

Although Im not feeling at peace right now. I know God is always watching me. I believe.

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